Step Families Support Group
Traditionally, a stepfamily is the family one acquires when a parent enters a new marriage, whether the parent was widowed or divorced. This community is focused on many of the relationships and issues that may arise within stepfamilies where you may find answers from some members and you may help other members with their questions.
I think I might have more of a insight of why I have such ill feelings for my SD, or not even ill feelings just the fact that I get so emotional when things go wrong when it involves here.
I had this dream last night, one I haven't had in some time. When my BF and I started dating we conceived a child the first time we had slept together. A scary way to start a relationship but we were so looking forward to this blessing. I miscarried almost 5 months along. He wasn't there because it happened so quickly and we weren't living together yet. The baby was a girl. My only girl......I didn't get to name her because I was according to my doctor and the hospital not far along, or even share the loss with him. He has no idea it was a girl.
She came to me in my dream last night. I woke up crying but happy at the same time because I got to see her. I never got to see her at the hospital. She's as beautiful as I always imagined..........
This may be why when my SD brags about being her daddy's only baby girl that I get a little upset. Neither one of his children knew I was pregnant.
I had this dream last night, one I haven't had in some time. When my BF and I started dating we conceived a child the first time we had slept together. A scary way to start a relationship but we were so looking forward to this blessing. I miscarried almost 5 months along. He wasn't there because it happened so quickly and we weren't living together yet. The baby was a girl. My only girl......I didn't get to name her because I was according to my doctor and the hospital not far along, or even share the loss with him. He has no idea it was a girl.
She came to me in my dream last night. I woke up crying but happy at the same time because I got to see her. I never got to see her at the hospital. She's as beautiful as I always imagined..........
This may be why when my SD brags about being her daddy's only baby girl that I get a little upset. Neither one of his children knew I was pregnant.
I can only imagine the excitement and attachment you had with your unborn child that you carried for 5 months. Then to have to have to let go of that dream and not even get to have a proper goodbye...I did not know the sex of my child but I believed in my heart it would have been a girl and planted a lily in our yard with an angel figurine next to it so I could grieve in some way. Perhaps you honor your child in some way...give her a name...even if you don't share it with anyone else you have something to hold onto.
Have you spoke to your BF about this? Perhaps it's best if he knows the pain you are feeling so he can help you through this. My husband was supportive of the way I grieved and deep down I think it hurt him too even if he didn't show his emotions.
*Hugs*
One of my biggest evils to myself is not sharing my feeling with those around me. I guess this is why they call me a pleaser.