My life does not feel "real" to me. I feel like I just half in a fog just walk around and do what I am supposed to do. I get up, go to work, come home, tend to my daughter and go to bed, repeat. I have some of my hobbies which are all about helping others. Veteran charity work. Politics. Nothing is really soley for me. I have lost any luster in life. Everything seems very grey. No colors. No vibrance. I think that there was issues between us going back as far as seven years but this was just the straw that broke the back. I feel like nothing is mine, not even my gender is mine anymore. He wears the makeup, the girls shirts, jeans, yoga pants, he has bigger boobs than I do and wears bras, panties, he goes to gay bars. He does this to work where he works with the wife of a political colleague of mine, his fb page says she changed her profile photo, she lived here and there so anyone who looks can see that basic information, which is going to ruin my politcal career. My daughter isnt going to have a foggy clue about the difference between women and men based on appearance. He is taken 20 years of my life, my youth, my livlihood, my drive passion and love and crushed it into powder because he chose HIMSELF