Hi I just need to vent I have been married for 5 years now he came out on r wedding night after we said I do ,not knowing anything about it he told me I was in shock but I told him I will try to make it work so 5 year has passed  and it's getting harder and harder I have 3 girls. This started out by I want just to wear bra and nothing else then thongs then he wanted to be a swinger I said hell no  after while of all this one day he came home and said  i want to fuck a girl that works with me ..... he never did but i know for a while he had feeling for her but i put a stop to that i told him it was either me or her i was 8 months pregnant so he chose me i guess..... after a while he started saying he wants to come public with all his obsessions of becoming a girl im still dealing with it alone very alone I thought we came to an understanding that he would not try anything with anyone no cheating no nothing but he wants to expearament I don't want him to once if he get a std anything ......... well now I'm heart broken because I found a dating site he has 5 days ago he joined I asked him about it he said that he never seen it before but it's on his email .......its says he is looking for 1 night stand and what we wants ...... what do I do how do I deal with this I feel very alone now heartbroken