We started doing this type of separation where we each stay gone 3 or4 days a week. The kids stay put and we take "turns". I hated it. I feel punished. Like I can't see our kids cuz of his choices. After only two weeks, we stopped. After only 2 weeks he has changed so much. He is much more with the clothes even in front of the kids. He announced in private to me he wants to change his name. And his doing voice therapy. My girls are uncomfortable. Watching appear as more woman than man breaks my heart. I feel like I have totally lost him. He is gone. She is here. With every step he is so happy almost giddy. I am trying so hard to be better about my anger and how I talk to him. Trying to be a friend.But it hurts so much to watch him go. He says I am still here. NO HE IS GONE. He says cares about how the kids feel. That's a lie because, their feelings won't stop him. I am looking for councling for me and kids. Having a hard time,and feels like no one knows how I feel.

So sad :(