My prayers are with you. At least some good has happened, your H's ex-wife and the OW have stopped bothering you. It must be agonizing waiting for the DNA test though. Have you decided what you'll do if the OC is your H's? Your H must be a lot older than you since he has a 13 y/o and you certainly don't look old enough to have a 13 y/o yourself. One bit of advice, don't have a baby with your H until you decide what you are going to do. Having a child will not make the relationship between you and your H better, in fact in a lot of ways children put a strain on the relationship between the parents. So don't bring another child into the mix until you are 100% sure if you're staying or not.

No worries on that. I have had my tubes tied for almost 10 years, and the way I feel is my H is not worthy to bear a child with me. I have three of my own from an past marriage and do not want anymore. Thanks for saying I look young :) I am older then I look, But yes my H is 5 years older. I like that everyone has stopped bothering me, but at the sametime it feels like the clam before the storm and I hate being so paranoid all the time. The have all turned me into a bundle of nerves. My SD is/was told to report back to her mom about everything I say and do, so I am still walking on eggshells in my own home and that is not cool. I almost would like to tell my H that his kid can't come over until the spying stops, but it is his kid, so what do you do? I really hate this. As far as if the kid is his or not, he knows I am still unsure if I will stay with him or not, I will not be treated like the OW from the OW and he knows that I will just leave, because I deserve so much more. Yet, it is hard to walk away from the past 9 years, one of the reasons I am still here. But I will do what is best for me and my kids, screw everyone else.

You are exactly right....do what is best for you and your kids. As far as your SD spying on you, that just goes with the territory. I think that all step kids end up spying for their parents, either unintentionally or on purpose. I don't have step children, oh wait, I guess I do with my H's illegitimate son and I do feel that he is under strict order to tell his mother (OW) exactly what goes on when he visits with us. I knew that would happen even before my first visit with him so I am very careful in what I say or do with him. And you are right you deserve better than this, we all do but unfortunately it was the hand we were dealt but we can decide if we are going to continue playing that hand or if we want out of the game altogether. My prayers are with you. And you do look young, tubes tied for 10 years already, I'm amazed.