i try to avoid having to explain who she is, the one time we ran into someone that we know who knew nothing about the child-when he asked who she was-i walked away. i talked to the guy about it later and he was saying how funny it was that my husband was left standing there looking stupid-that made me feel good.

oh, I am so not looking forward to the day. :(

yes the mere thought of it is gut-wrenching. as i said before we are going to his home town this weekend and of course he wants to take his kid and of course his family thinks that she is the best thing. but not only will there be family there but people who don't know about the child and i am just waiting for someone to tell me how cute my son and daughter is and i will be sure to inform them that only the boy belongs to me and if asked how old they are i will be happy to say that he turned 4 in december and she will be four next month. i have no plans to make this look all great for him but it probably will not matter anyway. i was gonna act all sad and broken up(i really am) was even thinking about breaking out in tears a few times but you know what-i am gonna hold my head high and put on my smiling face. let them all know that none of them can break me down. as long as my son is having a good time-fuck the rest of them.

oh and by the way-i have never called this child my stepchild-to me that pertains to a child that was there before the marriage-she is considered his "other child" to me. i have some other things that i only say to myself so we will just stick with other child. don't get me wrong-yes she is innocent but tell that to my broken heart!