Ok, confession is good for the soul, they say. I have been quit 2 weeks, 1 day, 19 hr.s, etc. and haven't smoked 236 cigarettes (I just realized that's over a carton, right?) Anyway, my last cigarette I smoked, I wrestled with throwing the pack away. Several co-workers were sharing with me about their quits and a couple of them said for several months they carried cigarettes around with them. I kind of understand this, because before when I quit for a while, throwing them away caused me to feel this desparation. I decided to keep the rest of my pack in the freezer. A few times when I craved, I have pulled them out - once even took one out, smelled it, remembered all the times out in the weather, bundling up for three minutes, then taking it all back off and thinking how stupid it all was, the hacking, the burning throat, the phlegm in the mornings, etc. ANYWAY, now I'm wondering when it's safe to throw them out. In a way, I feel dependent on that pack (?), like it's keeping me quit. I had thought that I would do something I did once: Write a letter to my "old friend" saying good-bye, then burying them in my back yard. What do ya'll think?
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