Siblings of Addicts Community Group
I created this group because I think often when there is an addict in the family the siblings of the addicts often go unnoticed. I have found numerous support groups for the parents of, the spouses of, and even the children of addicts but nothing really to specialize in the siblings of addicts department and feel it is well overdue. I hope in this group other siblings of...
Hi, i'm an older sister of a drug addict. My sister has been using for years now. She has been in and out of rehabs, and I continue to have hope for her. I'm at the point now though where I hate her. It's awful. It's not something i'm proud of, but I literally am hating everything about her. I need some support to get me past these awful thoughts, and i'm hoping that I can connect with another sibling who has felt this and got through it.
Thoughts of poison run through my head at night,
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Thoughts of poison run through my head at night,
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My younger brother is a drug addict, he is in jail again, this is the 4th time. In the past, when he gets to jail, it is like everything that he has done is swept under the carpet and he is given a clean slate, I have written him letters in the past and tried to 'help him through it', hoping that maybe this time he will get himself on track? It never happens. But this time it is different. I have learnt a lot over the last 18 months or so and I am tired of sweeping things under the carpet. He has done so many bad things, even over the last year and I am so damn angry with him at the moment, I hate him a lot of the time too. I think the difference is that I am letting myself feel that anger towards him. But I don't want to dwell on that poison because I don't want it to seep into my life as well. These days, I let myself feel it, I acknowledge it, and then I put it aside. It is a part of me, but I am not going to let that anger and hate define me because there is so much more to me than that.
He needs to accept the consequences of his actions, and one of those is that all the bad things that he has done over all these cause people to not want anything to do with him. I am tired of putting up with all his crap and still coming back for more. No more.
I am so very sorry that you are going through this. I don't have any magic answers, all I can do is tell you that you aren't alone, that I can relate. I hope we can all help support each other and learn from each other as we go through this. Take care :)
Wishing you the best.