I felt sad when I read your post. It's already 6years and your still hurting... I lost my brother only last January 10, 2010 and it hurts my heart so much. I cry everyday. When I go to sleep I wish that I can dream of him so I can hug him even if it was only in a dream. I have the same questions...when will it stop? how will this go away?

let me reply to your comment.I still hurt.Frank and i were very,very close and I was told that time will heal all.The only thing time does it to alleviate the memories.I dream of Frank all the time and I wish that things were different.If he lived,he wouldnt be able to be the person that he was.My brother had a stroke and this is why i walk so much.Frank died in a nursing home and he was in a wheelchair and he would call me after he got better and talk to me about The Yankees.My brother loved sports......He was just a fantastic person and people who knew him say the same things.How does a person go on? Well,I try to maintain a postiive outlook.I am reading inspirational Bible tracts for grief and i read them every day.i have began to feed the birds and love them as much as he did.I also feed the squirrels and they come back for more.When it rains,i remember this...Frank told me this...When it rains,,,God is crying and i am there...I will always be there for you even tho you dont see me.Those were the last words of Frank and now the feelings are getting longer and i want them to stop.How can I get them to stop? The minister told me that they will go away in time.It will be 6 years and I will always love my brother and miss him.You have got wonderful memories of your brother.I am making a scrapbook of all of the ;icturres he took fo me when i was a baby.Frank was just so thrilled that he was a big brother and the pictures make me realize he had a special love for me.I also have a journal and i write in it everyday.The journals at homeare my private thoughts.Noone seems them except me.Tomorrow it will be Superbowl and i am going to buy a balloon...Then I will tie a note send it up to the sky.Frank can watch the superbowl whereever he is and watch me also.ANd I will contitune with my writing and thought on grief.It is a black emotion.

i started writing too. I write all my memories, hurts anything about my brother. When I dream about him I write it too. I miss my brother terribly. I hope we can all be ok in time. God only knows when.

dear anna..i am sorry that I havent gotten back to you.But to me it is important to keep the pictures and what memories that you have.I miss Frank and this pain is so great...someone just ripped my heart out.I do dream of Frank and sometimes I cry.I will continue to write about my grief of losing Frank and grief is a black emotion and noone can see it or feel it but its there and some people grieve in their own time and I have been told it has been 6 years get over it.Get over it is a cop out.People who say this to me did not know Frank nor did they know that he was a super person also and I will grieve for him while I can.I know he would do the same for me.Brothers are special people and I miss mine.I do hope to be ok in time.As you said,God only knows when.Once again.i Thank you.vader.