i am petrified to do anything in front of a group of people i donm't know. even eating at a table with people i don't know freaks me out. i panic and can't talk and get scared. i love playing music but the idea of playing infront of people just freaks me out. i tryed before and i was a shambles, giving a terrible performance which put me off even more. its like a catch 22 situation in a way
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