i've felt pretty lonely the past few months and had some rough times around my birthday (end of march). i turned 26 and thus lost all of my insurance that i'd previously maintained under my parents. my car, which was 25yrs old to begin with, finally gave out after being impounded and having to take time off from work to deal with all that. Before that, my radiator hose blew on the way to work one morning...My boss was extremely unhappy with me taking the time off to deal with these things even though i had no other choice. She tore me a new one the day after in a very fun closed-door meeting.
Basically i feel like all i'm doing week after week is working my butt off at a high-stress job, running errands after work and sometimes on my lunch break, and then coming home and trying to figure out dinner for my boyfriend and i. weekends are the only time i have to clean the house, do laundry, and take care of the yard. don't know where a social life fits in there. i've been trying for over a month to hang out with a good friend from high school and have had to reschedule 4 times now...it's embarrassing and she probably thinks i'm awful. i feel pretty awful
so when i'm laying in bed after a long day, too tired to move and just scrolling on my phone, its comforting to just browse through lularoe consultants' albums, or look at stuff on amazon, sephora, whatever it may be. i just dont wanna think about the mile-long To-Do List i've already got going in my head for the next day. What bills are due, what plants really need to be pruned outside, need to drop off the vacuum at my mom's house, need to do laundry, what should i make for dinner tomorrow... i'm forever grateful that my boyfriend and i have finally reached some big goals that we've worked very hard for for a long time, but good lord sometimes my head just goes in circles trying to maintain everything.
And it's really easy to just have a little box waiting on my doorstep to cheer me up a bit when i walk up to the front door.
I have been drinking very heavy for 3 years now and I want out, it's not fun anymore. I woke up today in so much pain! My head is killing me, my stomach hurts like crazy, and I have so much guilt it's unbearable. I can not continue life down this road. I want and need to stop but I've tried well over 30 times....
Looking for help with dealing with a spouse who is alcoholic. I need support of what to do