Sexual Abuse Support Group

Sexual abuse is a relative cultural term used to describe sexual relations and behavior between two or more parties which are considered criminally and/or morally offensive. Different types of sexual abuse involve: Non-consensual, forced physical sexual behavior such as rape, incest or sexual assault, or psychological forms of abuse, such as verbal sexual behavior or...

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uhm hello, I dont know how to really type this....

SerenaStrife
SerenaStrife

Hi....My name is zach, uhm.  I am unsure how to go about this I am scared almost to tears to be typing about this but I'll never get over it if I don't.  My stepdad who is gone now, used to abuse me.  Physically, verbally and...sexually.  I didn't realize it at first when I was little around the ages of 7-11 before I had hit puberty.  He used to do things like bite my ear and pinch my privates til i couldnt take it.  He had me show my rear end to him after baths and, at times crawl into bed with me when he was drunk....and by drunk he would drink 24-30 beers a night.  He has done worse but I'd rather talk about those in private with someone.  I am sorry if I have done wrong typing this....and sorry.  I tend to apologize alot...I just am a nervous wreck I have been for a long time....

LuckyEmpath
LuckyEmpath
Hello Zach, I am very sorry for what your step father did to you. You have done nothing wrong in sharing your story with us as we all understand what you are going through. The reaction you had while typing this, scared/tears, is also very normal. It was brave of you to keep typing even though you felt that way.

Looking at your profile it says you are now in your early 20's. Are you able to work with a therapist? Sometimes they can be quite expensive or, in some cases, people live so remotely that there are simply none around. But, if you can work with a therapist I highly recommend it. You can heal from what happened and you deserve to heal. If you are unable to work with a therapist then please do keep coming here and talking with us. We do understand and we care.
SerenaStrife
SerenaStrife
Sadly getting a therapist isnt gonna happen right now, I cant afford it and the only one who can is my mom but she refuses to get me some help. I do appriciate I can come here, I was so scared cause the last time I tried posting anything about this people just kinda made fun of me. I thank you for your kindness it means alot.
justlikemusic
justlikemusic
I'm sorry you went through that and that you're not able to go to therapy. If I may suggest you should look up SIA (survivors of incest anonymous) meetings. It's free and it's a group of survivors getting together, sharing their experience and just supporting each other. It can be extremely hard to even talk about it but when you're with other survivors it makes you feel connected and not restricted. Look into it and I truly hope those meetings are offered near you and that you consider going to them. Take care, you're not alone. And you're brave for writing about it. You're worthy of love, living life and worthy of healing.
Muskoka007
Muskoka007
I am sorry Zach you went through this. You did nothing wrong and you are brave to write about it. I had abuse at a young age, 2 years old, and I have found that EMDR therapy helps. Sometimes when we were young with the abuse it is hard to verbalize, with EMDR there is not much talking and I have done therapy for over 22 years and I wish I had done this when I was younger, it really has helped.
hyerin77
hyerin77
Hello Zach,
I am very sorry to hear about what you experienced. As for not being able to afford therapy, do you have insurance? If not, can you get Medicaid? Not sure where you are located. Perhaps there are clinics that take Medicaid if you can apply and get therapy for yourself. I hope this helps. You are not alone, we are all here for you.
donnawanda
donnawanda
You can also contact RAINN.org. They have a hotline and a chatline. They found me a free therapist when I called, although free therapy is not necessarily available everywhere.
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