Sexual Abuse Support Group
Sexual abuse is a relative cultural term used to describe sexual relations and behavior between two or more parties which are considered criminally and/or morally offensive. Different types of sexual abuse involve: Non-consensual, forced physical sexual behavior such as rape, incest or sexual assault, or psychological forms of abuse, such as verbal sexual behavior or...
I thought I would make a post about some things that have been going on for me lately.
I had to go to hospital, where they examined me, originally to find out what was causing my bathroom issues. The MALE doctor prodded and poked at me and it felt horrible I felt so upset and angry inside and it felt like my skin was on fire. I was so scared.
There are some issues I don't want to talk about openly yet.
But they also found evidence of abuse and asked me about it. I couldn't tell them who did it.
Now I have to go and see a therapist, but I find it very difficult to talk anyway and sometimes prefer signing or use symbols or writing. I haven't been able to talk about anything yet. I'm afraid if I start talking I'll let on who did it and they'll get into trouble.
Worst of all, they want to do three surgeries. I am so scared. One of them is for my bathroom issues, which the doctor said were caused by abuse. He asked me what they did to cause it but I couldn't tell. Now I have to have surgery for it. I think it was something my brothers did to me. I hate them I hate them I HATE THEM. They're just living their lives like they did nothing and don't hurt and aren't broken like I am. They don't know if the surgery will be successful and if it isn't I might be able to have a catheter put in, then I won't have to wear diapers.
I have food issues, and had (before all this) been working towards eating more 'normal' foods and trying things but now I feel like I just want to have my shakes and milk and yoghurt and puree and nobody will let me 'go backwards' so I feel uncomfortable ALL THE TIME because if I'm not anxious about all this stuff then I'm anxious because there is a meal coming up and I won't be able to leave if I don't eat what I'm supposed to, and if I don't eat what I'm supposed to I won't be allowed to games or gym class. IT'S NOT FAIR.
I had to go to hospital, where they examined me, originally to find out what was causing my bathroom issues. The MALE doctor prodded and poked at me and it felt horrible I felt so upset and angry inside and it felt like my skin was on fire. I was so scared.
There are some issues I don't want to talk about openly yet.
But they also found evidence of abuse and asked me about it. I couldn't tell them who did it.
Now I have to go and see a therapist, but I find it very difficult to talk anyway and sometimes prefer signing or use symbols or writing. I haven't been able to talk about anything yet. I'm afraid if I start talking I'll let on who did it and they'll get into trouble.
Worst of all, they want to do three surgeries. I am so scared. One of them is for my bathroom issues, which the doctor said were caused by abuse. He asked me what they did to cause it but I couldn't tell. Now I have to have surgery for it. I think it was something my brothers did to me. I hate them I hate them I HATE THEM. They're just living their lives like they did nothing and don't hurt and aren't broken like I am. They don't know if the surgery will be successful and if it isn't I might be able to have a catheter put in, then I won't have to wear diapers.
I have food issues, and had (before all this) been working towards eating more 'normal' foods and trying things but now I feel like I just want to have my shakes and milk and yoghurt and puree and nobody will let me 'go backwards' so I feel uncomfortable ALL THE TIME because if I'm not anxious about all this stuff then I'm anxious because there is a meal coming up and I won't be able to leave if I don't eat what I'm supposed to, and if I don't eat what I'm supposed to I won't be allowed to games or gym class. IT'S NOT FAIR.
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Middy is off for a bit so if anyone needs a CL please just give me a shoutSending a big hug...xo
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I feel so dirty and used I was drunk and passed out at a party when I came around some guy was on top of me rapeing me he covered my mouth and told me to shut up afterwards he got up and got dressed and said I better not tell anyone I found my friend and reported that I had been raped after having medical checks and them getting DNA I've taken the morning after pill IAM just so depressed and...
I was a bed-wetter as a kid, a combination of being abused as a child and juices with tuns of artificial additives; also made me hyperactive.
But the surgery for my bathroom problems is going to be next week :'( and I don't even want it what is the point if it might not even work?
As I said before, they already know the answers to the questions... About the abuse. They know cause they have seen it before... Probably wanted to know where you are in your 'healing' (from the abuse).
You are really a strong individual, and even having all these bad things happen, you are amazingly strong.
You are not the first person to be dealing with all of this, including the surgeries, and sadly there are others out there who deal with too...
The surgeon, and doctors know what their doing, and you are 'just another person who needs help' and they WANT to help you.
If they didn't want to help you, they wouldn't be telling you about this.
You want to be normal, I understand... Me too... But the difference here is, you have more ppl who want to help you, and I think that's great!
I want to say 'everything will be ok' and 'you'll be happier after its all over'... I really hope it's all true! I want to say that stuff, I also don't want to be 'that person' either.. (Now I'm just being confusing)
I'm always here, you can always message me, I'll help in what I can..
Hang in there, you're a lot stronger than you know!
Looking forward to your return!!