Sexual Abuse Support Group

Sexual abuse is a relative cultural term used to describe sexual relations and behavior between two or more parties which are considered criminally and/or morally offensive. Different types of sexual abuse involve: Non-consensual, forced physical sexual behavior such as rape, incest or sexual assault, or psychological forms of abuse, such as verbal sexual behavior or...

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dared.to.be.different01
dared.to.be.different01

when i was 9 years old i was sexually abused by my friends older brothers and this went on for about a month and the only reason i kept going was because they threatend me and my family. yet im still very angry at myself for going back everytime. i hate the fact that im more angry at myself than i am at them. i had never told anyone until about 3 weeks ago. i kept it hidden for 6 years because i thought everyone would look at me as disgusted as i am with me, because the people that knew (the two boys friends) would follow me around calling me a dirty slut and would sometimes corner me and tell me they wanted me too but never actually did anything. at the time my parents had just divorced and my dad had disappeared and i was living with my mom who was an alcholic. i spent almost everyday taking care of her. cooking, cleaning and ect. i always had to walk to school because my mom was to hungover to drive and they would follow me the whole way there. there was never a way for me to escape of my mess of a life. i started contiplating death at a very young age. ive been hositalized 6 times for attempted suicide and self harm and im at my breaking point. ive look everywhere to find support groups and theyre either to far or they get canceled. i dont want to feel alone anymore. please anyone messege me. if you dont want to be my friend thats okay because i dont have any anyway. please i need support. thak you 

Momabearx10
Momabearx10
Oh Dear one, I'm sorry for all you have gone through. Please know all you have felt is much like the rest of us. Also know you are worth love support and life. You will find support here and you are absolutely not alone. If you have not had counseling that is specific with this, I'm sure it could help.
rosecandy
rosecandy
I know how difficult it is to find support in real life sometimes (not to mention this is something that is hard to talk about anyway), but please try to remember that you are a very brave young person to do so. Even if you start by talking here. That's a very good first step and you're doing the right thing for yourself by releasing it from your spirit.

You are not alone. There are so many people out there who have been through similar trauma (myself included) who want to support you and some of us are right here.

Please keep reaching out. You are still here!
donnawanda
donnawanda
It was so strong and courageous of you to keep going back to that horrible situation in order to protect your family. What a brave and generous girl you were! And then cooking, cleaning, getting yourself up and to school on time - all that at 9 years old?! You are amazing! Lots of support coming your way ♥
Silentone87
Silentone87
I'm so sorry to hear about your situation. I'm dealing with repercussions of a difficult and abused childhood as well. You are not alone. Unfortunately there are people who don't care about the long term effects of their actions and we, the abused, suffer. You sound like a caring and giving person. And, although it's hard and I struggle with this as well, try to remember that you are a strong adult now and in control. You have something to offer this often cruel world. Keep pushing forward.
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