Sexual Abuse Support Group

Sexual abuse is a relative cultural term used to describe sexual relations and behavior between two or more parties which are considered criminally and/or morally offensive. Different types of sexual abuse involve: Non-consensual, forced physical sexual behavior such as rape, incest or sexual assault, or psychological forms of abuse, such as verbal sexual behavior or...

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something that’s been on my mind

aftermath
aftermath

though i haven’t been “abused”, at least i don’t think of it that’s way (my mother tended to encourage sexual behavior in me as a child by taking frequent showers and slept with me naked, i faintly remember groping her out of nowhere but she said nothing to discourage that behavior), it’s that i didn’t have healthy sexual development. i have constant memories of masturbating until i was 5 or 6, though there was one event where i went as far as masturbating in public in the second grade, and even now i feel like i sexualize just about everything. of course i’m not groping random people left and right (hell, i can barely make eye-contact with people), though i feel like i’m more interested in fictional taboo than i should be like extremely underage sex. could that be something brought on by my past experiences, or something totally different? i don’t know, i honestly just feel ashamed and i wish i didn’t feel like this lol

LillyPotter
LillyPotter
have you been able to see a therapist or dr to talk about this? this will be very important to do. you will feel so much better for having talked things out.
aftermath
aftermath
planning on telling her more about it this week, thanks for the support owo
donnawanda
donnawanda
Welcome to the group. It does sound like there are issues with how you were brought up. I'm glad you are seeing a counselor.
LuckyEmpath
LuckyEmpath
I am very sorry for what your mother did to you. It's my personal feeling that when an adult does the things your mother did with you, it is abuse. No parent should be taking showers or sleeping naked with their children. Most important though, is how her actions made you feel and it's your feelings that tell you that you felt what she did was wrong. I am glad you are working with a counselor so you can heal your past and move on to have a happy fulfilling life.
aftermath
aftermath
thanks! ill be seeing her on friday, so maybe after that i’ll figure out if i should tell my dad or not ^^’
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