Keep in mind sometime you have to overcome fears to be free. Meds have changed since then, and there's always herbal. Remember that some of the pills are just forms of the same chemicals that should be in our brains anyway, that experiences have changed our makeup. An antidepressant helped me for some time. The antipsychotics are more what you need to worry about.

Meds have helped me a great deal. I had to try a few to find the best one for me. I have been on them for 12 years now and I'm so happy that I went to my doctor and asked for help. The abuse changed the way my brain functions and the meds really help to balance things out.

My husband takes Ativan for anxiety. He likes it because you only take it as needed and he doesn't turn into a zombie when he takes it. It just brings his agitation down several notches so he can better cope.

The medications now are pretty good. Some of the older stuff would definitely mess you up.

The trick here is go to a Psychopharmacologist, don't get something from the family doc. You want someone who knows how to prescribe this stuff and how to monitor it.

If the medication can help you why not take it. These are very powerful meds and must be monitored closely. Just because you father had some bad side effects from his meds does not necessarily mean that you will. If your doc prescribes small doses and you take it when you supposed to and keep monitoring it you should be ok. Try not to worry to much and try to read to much up on these things. Get a book on meditation and try and start your own private journal. I have been journaling since i was fifteen years old. Writing in it everyday. I'm now forty three. I plan to write a book someday on my experience of being abducted. I certainly have writen enough material for one. I will keep you in my heart. Don't give up hope.

( Hope To Cope ) 1magicman

Thank You guys so much for the support, I think I am going to have to swallow my fear and give it a try. Clearly doing what I am is non productive. I did start yoga this week, I am playing nature sounds at night to sleep better. I do write, I am fifty pages in to a book, but I have hit a sadness. The writing pulled the rest of my memories to the front and I feel like I need to fight even to breathe. I am going to try meds and a therapist because doing nothing is not an option. I am dying inside, and I don't want to.

First of all, I am sorry that you feel as uncomfortable as you do. When subjects such as this arise, I must first of all remind myself and everyone else that I am not a physician and have no formal training in medicine. I take an anti depressent had have taken one for about about five years. Like others have expressed I tried a few and felt their effectrs. Just as with tranqualizers, booze, prescription drugs, cigarettes, coffee and 'energy drinks' good and bad effects are possible.

We take meds because we have issues which we can't handle.
The meds may have side effects, or, they may stop the progress of some disorders and allow other disorders to take over. People usually quickly point out that anti depressents suppress the libido. Well, Duhhhhh, depression also suppresses the libido. Maybe if my libido is depressed, I am simply not takeing enough of the med. Teenagers with depresion commit suicide every day. Kids with deepression are prescribed prozac. Some kids who take the prozac commit suicide too. Maybe it caused the sucide, maybe they were not taking enough to overcome the depression.

I was also taking anti-depressents 20 years ago. and ten years befrore that I was taking tranqualizers. The only time I ever got zombie like was when I mixed Librium with huge amounts of booze.

People are being treated everyday for PTSD without meds. See a counselor. Try everything non narcodic before taking any med. Lots of different things can help you. Personally, and I am not a doc, I think meds should be used like a crutch. Use them till the crises is past and then try some kind of talk or touch therapy. Cognitive Thearpy works on a broad range of disorders. Self help books by Dr. David Burns have been proven to help people more and for longer periods of times than do meds. You have a lot of options.

Be honest with your doc. You believe your dad was bad off with the meds? Cahances are he could have been worse behaviored without them.

Have you been evaluated by a professional? If not, It might be best to get that done first, then see what the professional recommends in the way of treatment. Onthings like this I have to sty in the moment, I have turned out to be a rotton fortune teller.

I went on Prozac to deal with the Divorce From Hell. I was in a really, really down place. I had two car accidents in the same year. I got lost all the time. I would get a pair of socks out of the drawer, put on one, and have lost the other one to the point it would take half an hour to find it.

The Prozac did wonders for me, at least in the beginning. My head substantially cleared and I was able to make reasonable decisions again.

But my, now ex, wife kept turning up the heat. There was the possibility of sexual abuse of my kids with her new boyfriend. So i started slipping and my doc doubled my dosage. This, again, lifted me out of the pit but I was still in very rough shape. We decided to wait a few months and see how things developed. I started sleeping up to 20 hours in a day.

Then, one day, I figured I'd had enough and did a radical lifestyle change. I went from eating a very high fat American diet to a very low fat Vegan one. Within a couple of days, I was feeling fantastic. Then I started exercising and that has been wonderful too.

So I'm still on the Prozac and I still think it's good to be on. But it wasn't enough by itself. I had to take charge of my life somehow and getting healthy proved to be the ticket for me to turn things around.

That's what journaling does. It brings these memories from deep within so they can be delt with. If you can't bring these memories to the suface they will eat you up inside from the inside out like a cancer.

( Hope To Cope ) 1magicman

The journaling is hard, I went from a complete block of my memories for years then to what seems like a floodgate. I very much want to lock them all back away and forget, but clearly they don't go back where they came from. I am finding it so hard to cope. I feel all the emotions that I should have felt then. At thirty-two I feel like a frightened confused child. So hard.

omega 3 3caps two times a day...music calms me so when i feel it coming on i put my earbuds in kenny g is very soothing...also writting out my thoughts tend to help even if i just throw it away.