I was in a sexually abusive relationship from 13 until I was 16.

I finally ended it, but agreed to keep in contact via messages(Hard to cut off three years of your life)- The guy continued to ask if we could hang out. For months I told him no and begged him to stop asking. He showed up at my school bus stop anyways.

That was when I officially cut off contact. It was the best thing I had done. I was finally on my way to finding my new normal.

About two months back he "accidentally" called me and "accidentally" texted me without a day in-between. I sent a very long and very clear message telling him to leave me alone. --- MAJOR set back in my journey forward.

I blocked his number and all social media accounts.

I joine daily strength. Found my way back to my path foward a lot quicker than I thought.

I was confident he was out of my life. So confident that any time I suspected him I could calmly tell myself it was just my anxiety and move on.

Recently, October 28, I got a text from an unknown number. When I asked who it was they gave a reference to a show, one that was shared between a friend and I. For three days I shared insights into my life; my college courses, my new friends, the house I'm moving into, what my new bedroom will look like, etc. At one point I was concerned that maybe this wasn't said friend, in fact the exact words I said to another friend was "I feel like I'm texting a someone who has a crush on me". They agreed it was probably just my anxiety, but for my sake, I took a break from responding for a day.

The next day they messaged me asking if I was sure I knew who I was talking to... They then tormented me for an entire day, refusing to tell me who they were, and lying about details/hints. I started to suspect my ex, but again I put that off to my anxiety- its just a friend trying to have fun. My anxiety increased as the day went on. Within these messages he made comments like “I accept bribes” and “do you deserve a hint”.

He lied to me to confuse me on who I was talking to- acted like he didn’t know if I had more than one ex, said we hadn’t talked in almost a year, and at the end even directly lied about who he is “Kevin Taylor, remember me?” ( I never knew a Kevin). I directly told him it was making me anxious the first time the response was “but where’s my fun, for all I know we might never talk again”- the second time he said “Everything gives you anxiety”. “Who wouldn't message you on their old # unless they just wanted to mess with you”. He went so far as to add “How many[people] would you never want to talk to again”

At the point where he calimed to be "Kevin Taylor" I knew it was him, though I had been denial for the last hour of the conversation. I responded that I did remember him, that I remembered him as the sexual predator who sexually abused me. He then claimed all he wanted to do was check on me and make sure I was okay, that he wants me "gone from him" but he had to atleast know Im doing better. and then he turned the conversation around and asked me why I talk about him like that, that he never said anything bad about me, etc. I told reiterated what he did to me and he first claimed he was a kid and made mistakes and then claimed he never did any of it. 

I just don't know how I am supposed to move on from this. Every time I think I'm safe or free from him he finds a way to rip me open again. 

He sexually abused me. He showed up my bus stop despite me telling him I never wanted to see him again. He continued to call and text despite me telling him to leave me alone. When I block his number he messages me from another number, pretends to be someone else, and finds out all kinds of information about me that he had no right to. -- Even before this I had fears of running into him(I now live six and half hours away), I could tell myself I was being irrational and go along with my day, but how am I susposed to do that now? How am I supposed to believe he wouldn't do something like that when I have been proven wrong so many times before?

How am I supposed to move forward knowing he now knows about every piece of my new life that makes me happy? 

I don't know how to start over again when I honestly can't know what he is going to do next... 

Any advice would be nice...