Sexual Abuse Support Group
Sexual abuse is a relative cultural term used to describe sexual relations and behavior between two or more parties which are considered criminally and/or morally offensive. Different types of sexual abuse involve: Non-consensual, forced physical sexual behavior such as rape, incest or sexual assault, or psychological forms of abuse, such as verbal sexual behavior or...
sorry, I know this is the wrong group, and not figuring anyone will respond...
This isn't really anything to do with sexual abuse.. it's just the first forum I clicked on.. and it's taken me almost a week to build up the strength to even write here...
I've seen and survived a lot in life... some things I wish I could forget, and others I wish I could remember...
lately it's been depression, and giving up, and feeling like a bother. I don't feel like I have anyone to talk to, my therapist basically told me if I didn't have a goal each time I saw her, I was wasting her time... that was about 1.5-2 yrs ago.. I've tried to talk to a therapist in my own county, they told me I was remembering my past abuse wrong cause what happened "doesn't happen that way..." I left in tears.
im not working, so I guess I'm not aloud to have stress.. I figure the bills, I'm always comparing rates to save $5/month... yet I'm not aloud to have headaches or chest pains, stress... I'm always in pain, but I can't talk about it.. I see a dr for pain, but am I really getting any better?
I just don't understand this...
my mom passed away one year ago, but the only people I might be about to talk to are my wife, or a sister-in-law...or her husband.. but my father-in-law passed away a little over a yr ago, I don't want to be a bother to anyone.. I don't want to cause anyone to cry because I'm crying.. then I'll shut down, and comfort them...
school should be starting soon... I hope the schools stay open.. but then, I'll be left alone yet again... I clean house, I have some projects outside that need done, and other stuff... but only if my back will let me...my wife doesn't understand how much pain I'm in, yet I really can't talk about it cause I'll get the " you don't understand pain.. I'm in more pain than you AND still go to work..." anything I am dealing with, she has it so much worse than me.. sounds like I'm just fussing...
I need to let anyone reading this go.. I can't do this to anyone here... it's not right to waste everyone's time...
sorry, I'm still gonna post it..
feel free to yell at me in the comments... I deserve it.
I am alone in this..
