Sexual Abuse Support Group

Sexual abuse is a relative cultural term used to describe sexual relations and behavior between two or more parties which are considered criminally and/or morally offensive. Different types of sexual abuse involve: Non-consensual, forced physical sexual behavior such as rape, incest or sexual assault, or psychological forms of abuse, such as verbal sexual behavior or...

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PeekAhBooGirl 04/16/2018

*SLIGHTLY DESCRIPTIVE and a little long*

I am 18, just turned this year. From the time I was around IDK 1st or 2nd grade to the summer of 2017 and I believe a bit into my senior year, my dad would do bad things to me. Incest. He has had me give him two bjs and tried to force mr into several more... The inside if my lips were a but bruised from my teeth if that's even possible. He has put hus fingers in every hole he can, as well as his tongue... I now absolutely hate mustaches and beards... The last year he tried to do me properly, but only did me in the ass a couple times... When I think if having sex with someone I might imagine a certain person for a minute and then its him and I feel him touching me.... I feel filthy and broken and damaged... I have turned down two guys for that reason, abd that one of them had a beard... I hate it... A 2nd/3rd grader shouldn't know that much about sexual things, and they shouldn't see porn, or gave a small vibrator used on them...

I don't feel like I'm worthy of anyone..

Momabearx10 04/16/2018

Oh honey. Im sorry for what u have been through. U are worth everything good in the world despite what was done to you. You are not to blame ever at all. Only the perp. I believe you and you aren't alone.

PeekAhBooGirl 04/16/2018

Thanks Momabearx10

hopefulmama 04/17/2018

This is his burden not yours,no child should ever know these things.Are you in therapy?

PeekAhBooGirl 04/17/2018

I'm not in therapy anf my family doesn't know

helpme2017 04/17/2018

I encourage you to get in therapy and start a journey toward healing. I am sorry your father hurt you. Adults are suppose to protect kids, Sending prayers and hugs your way.

PeekAhBooGirl 04/17/2018

Thanks

Beatha 04/18/2018

I'm so sorry. Your dad is the filthy one, not you, and you're worthy of being loved for who you are, cared for and respected.

Sorry to repeat this, I've already written it in another post of yours: I recommend you to get in touch with an organization who helps victims of sexual abuse. They do not require you to charge your dad and they've got experience with situations like yours where the family doesn't know.

Gentle hugs, PeekAhBooGirl, you're not alone. Sending you support and encouragement.

PeekAhBooGirl 04/18/2018

Its fine, abd thank you again

Grasshopper_7 04/18/2018

I'm so sorry. I wish I had told someone when I was being sexually molested by my uncles. They threatened n scared me into not telling on them.
I have suffered from anxiety n panic attacks ever since. I suffer from triggers. If I had told someone then maybe I would have received professional therapy. All the problems I have suffered as an adult may have been minimal. God bless you on your journey.

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