Sexual Abuse Support Group

Sexual abuse is a relative cultural term used to describe sexual relations and behavior between two or more parties which are considered criminally and/or morally offensive. Different types of sexual abuse involve: Non-consensual, forced physical sexual behavior such as rape, incest or sexual assault, or psychological forms of abuse, such as verbal sexual behavior or...

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My first admission of "Guilt"

Traybroken
Traybroken
i first remember my grandpa in the shower, I remember comparing parts, Touching parts....I remember him saying things like "Just suck it" and "It wont hurt for long" I was 3-7 years old when he did these things, There are pictures of me nude spread out like a model that all my fam has seen they think its "Cute" I see it as child porn...A travesty, Im not sure Ill cry when my grandpa dies...I likely will...they do a lot for mom and I considering the situation (Ask in PM maybe) I cant say anything Id ruin so much and for sure just kil myself so Ive only told like 2 people ever...this is my third time admitting it so bare with me please I may not love talking super open with people I dont know but I am here for a reason!
loum50
loum50
There are also pictures of me as an infant with my father giving me a bath in the sink and standing me up for the camera. Only my father gave me a bath not my mother.

****** tw ******

He liked to play with my sexual parts in the bath and made it seem like fun, fun for him. He did plenty of other things also. I have suicidal thoughts very often.
deleted_user
deleted_user
I am so sorry your grandpa did this to you. My grandpa was a kind, nice man. There were lots of females in our family and he did not abuse any of them. I am thankful to have known him.
People who do these 'cute' disgusting things are twisted. They are not worth you cutting yourself. Please do not hurt yourself anymore over the disgusting things they have done to you. DO NOT given anymore power over to them. Take your power back and Live your life for yourself now!
deleted_user
deleted_user
I am so sorry your grandpa did this to you. My grandpa was a kind, nice man. There were lots of females in our family and he did not abuse any of them. I am thankful to have known him.
People who do these 'cute' disgusting things are twisted. They are not worth you cutting yourself. Please do not hurt yourself anymore over the disgusting things they have done to you. DO NOT given anymore power over to them. Take your power back and Live your life for yourself now!
deleted_user
deleted_user
I am so sorry your grandpa did this to you. My grandpa was a kind, nice man. There were lots of females in our family and he did not abuse any of them. I am thankful to have known him.
People who do these 'cute' disgusting things are twisted. They are not worth you cutting yourself. Please do not hurt yourself anymore over the disgusting things they have done to you. DO NOT given anymore power over to them. Take your power back and Live your life for yourself now!
deleted_user
deleted_user
I am so sorry your grandpa did this to you. My grandpa was a kind, nice man. There were lots of females in our family and he did not abuse any of them. I am thankful to have known him.
People who do these 'cute' disgusting things are twisted. They are not worth you cutting yourself. Please do not hurt yourself anymore over the disgusting things they have done to you. DO NOT given anymore power over to them. Take your power back and Live your life for yourself now!
deleted_user
deleted_user
I am so sorry your grandpa did this to you. My grandpa was a kind, nice man. There were lots of females in our family and he did not abuse any of them. I am thankful to have known him.
People who do these 'cute' disgusting things are twisted. They are not worth you cutting yourself. Please do not hurt yourself anymore over the disgusting things they have done to you. DO NOT given anymore power over to them. Take your power back and Live your life for yourself now!
bluedragon41
bluedragon41
It's not your fault. You didn't do anything to deserve that. Please don't harm yourself. Like all of us you have been hurt too much already.
Traybroken
Traybroken
Thanks all!!! I try not to but its hard for me sometimes...I dunno I wanna open up but Im scared...
deleted_user
deleted_user
You have not done anything wrong. There is no admission of guilt here. There is an opening up of it on your part, but it is not your deep dark secret----it is his.
Talk about it as much as you need to.
deleted_user
deleted_user
I am sorry you were hurt as a child, I was also and I know what you mean about talking about it. I have only told one single person about my abuse, and even then, only told bits and pieces....sometimes I wish it were easier to talk about what he did to me.

Take care of yourself
deleted_user
deleted_user
Traybroken I don't friend people here as a safety issue. I am always around on this board. There are a lot of us listening with or without replying. There is a lot support just keep reaching out.