Sexual Abuse Support Group
Sexual abuse is a relative cultural term used to describe sexual relations and behavior between two or more parties which are considered criminally and/or morally offensive. Different types of sexual abuse involve: Non-consensual, forced physical sexual behavior such as rape, incest or sexual assault, or psychological forms of abuse, such as verbal sexual behavior or...
I WOULD REALLY LIKE TO KNOW WHY I CANT STOP FEELING LIKE IM DYING INSIDE WHY THE URGE TO CUT WONT LEAVE WHY I STILL SEE AND FEEL HIM IN MY SLEEP WILL I EVER BE OK WILL I EVER BE ABLE TO LOVE A GUY WITHOUT FREAKING OUT ON HIM WILL I EVER HAVE FRIENDS AND NOT WONDER WHEN THEY WILL LEAVE ME OR THINK THEY ARE MAD AT ME WHEN THEY TAKE TOO LONG ANSWERING A TEXT OR SOMETHING. ITS NOT FAIR HE IS HAPPY HE IS ENGAGED AND HAS A LIFE AND PROBABLY NEVER THINKS ABOUT WHAT HE DID... ITS NOT RIGHT I JUST WANT TO DIE NOW AND END IT ALL
Get some ice cubes or a rubber band to snap on your wrist in lieu of giving into the urge to cut, please! You have been hurt enough and I really don't want you to hurt yourself more. Cutting, or any form of SI, is like a drug, and it really will only make you feel worse in the end. Please try with all of your might to resist those urges!!
I realize that it is not fair, much worse than not fair, that he is engaged and seems to be happy while you are in such despair and misery. I hope his fiance knows what he is, what kind of scum she will be tying her life to.... But there is no better revenge and justice than for you to recover, for you to take back your life and not only survive, but thrive. I don't know what you believe, but I believe that he will get what he deserves eventually. Karma or the vengeance of God or whatever you want to call it. May take a long time, but it will happen.
In the mean time, instead of concentrating on how well he may seem to be doing, concentrate on YOU. Work on your own recovery. Don't waste your time screaming of the unfairness of it all, but rather rise up from the ruins he gave you and learn to live again! Take back your life! You are worth so much more than this despair and misery you are in, and, take it from someone who has been there, you CAN recover. You CAN get better. It DOES get easier. There is no way under, over, or around it, but you can get THROUGH it.
Take heart, have courage, and be strong, fellow survivor. Don't let him win by injuring or killing yourself. YOU are the valuable one that we NEED here! It would be so unfair to the world to end your goodness and let that scum survive instead.....
This too shall pass. You can do this, and you can come out of the pit of despair that you are in. Hold on to your hope and determination to recover! Be a survivor!
I'm thinking of you.