Sexual Abuse Support Group

Sexual abuse is a relative cultural term used to describe sexual relations and behavior between two or more parties which are considered criminally and/or morally offensive. Different types of sexual abuse involve: Non-consensual, forced physical sexual behavior such as rape, incest or sexual assault, or psychological forms of abuse, such as verbal sexual behavior or...

3,544 Members

16,257 Posts

1 Online

kayrl 01/30/2008

i'm so tired of going to sleep at 3 i'm tired that the only reason i fall asleep is because i am exausted. i'm tired of being tarrified to go to sleep. i'm scared of alway's thinking that someone is going to come in and hurt me. i'm tired of crying myself to sleep almost every night. i cant take it anymore. i wont hurt myself because i'm too scared but i wish i wasn't i wish i could just end it all. i'm tired of feeling like i'm worth nothing. i want to be loved and i want to feel safe. i just want to be able to sleep and be able to do my school work. i want to be better. oh god please help me. please if anyone if up please talk to me.

deleted_user 01/30/2008

Hey, you alright?

kayrl 01/30/2008

deleted_user 01/30/2008

I don't really like the fact that my picture is a shadow person... I think it's kind of sketchy. Anyway, I saw what you wrote and it made me really sad-- I joined the site just now because it would not let me respond to you otherwise.

What can I do to make you feel better? Or at least good enough for the time being that you'll be able to fall asleep?

deleted_user 01/30/2008

Karyl, this is Ninavee, what is going on right now hon? What is making you so very sad? We are here to help. I don't have all the answers but I am here holding your hand and trying to give you comfort... sweet girl... you are so needed in this world...

kayrl 01/30/2008

idk i'm so scared someone is going ot kill me...idk why. i have no reason really to be scared i just get so paranoid at night all the time and this time was really bad.....i had a panic attack....i can't sleep...well i think now i can just because i'm so exausted from the panic attack and from cryign but im' scared to i'm scared to dream.

deleted_user 01/30/2008

Babe, you're going to be okay. Sometimes it probably feels like everything would be alright if you just had someone there with you to talk to in person... but that's not always necessary. There are people who can help you. You won't be like this forever.

deleted_user 01/30/2008

It kind of hurt to read your post; i was only passing through this site when I was trying to figure something out to help one of my friends-- but reading your post reminded me so much of me a few years back and it gave me goosebumps and I remembered exactly what it felt like. The idea of someone else feeling that kind of terrible affected me enough to join this website, so let's figure something out to get you feeling better

kayrl 01/30/2008

i hate nights, i feel so alone so valnerable.

deleted_user 01/30/2008

Sweet girl, my heart hurts for you. If we can't make your pain go away, we can at least share the pain, the terrors and hold your hand while you work thru it.

When you're scared dont hesitate to come here and reach out. You are not alone and we can fight together.

motherduck 01/30/2008

I know exactly how you feel. This will sound stupid, but I have a little TV with a DVD player attached, I play a "happy" movie to go to sleep EVERY night or else I have the same problem. The ones that make me feel good are Princess Diaries, Finding Nemo, Everafter, She's All That, some kind of happy, non thinking, no worrying, no violence, no nothing movie. Just PG rated things that are happy. Give it a try. I'm sorry you have this too. Much love to you sweetheart.

deleted_user 01/30/2008

I am so sorry for what you are going through but I do understand. I would not fall asleep until the sun would come up. I was afraid to sleep at night and only felt comfortable sleeping during the day, if i slept at all. As far as the dreams are concerned I learned to wake myself up when I was having them.

kayrl 01/30/2008

thanks guys...i sometimes tired to think "happy" thoughts but that stoped working..i don't like ot watch tv so i just don't.

deleted_user 01/30/2008

I'm sorry Karyl. = ( I'm sending you a HUGE HUG right now. I'm here to talk if you need me.

kayrl 01/30/2008

thanks

deleted_user 01/31/2008

Hi, Karyl

Prayer works, give it a try.

Join the Conversation