Sexual Abuse Support Group

Sexual abuse is a relative cultural term used to describe sexual relations and behavior between two or more parties which are considered criminally and/or morally offensive. Different types of sexual abuse involve: Non-consensual, forced physical sexual behavior such as rape, incest or sexual assault, or psychological forms of abuse, such as verbal sexual behavior or...

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DepressedUnicorn
DepressedUnicorn

I'm going to share what I'm fine with for now. 



First it was by my father... Last year I was 15 I was given alcohol and forced to drink I tried everything from the sink to the floor I couldn't move from my spot or sit lean or touch anything until I drank it. He took me upstairs and laid me down it started with a massage then he gave me more alcohol but I blacked like I was awake but wasn't aware of my situation and I didn't remember a lot of it I had almost 2 years of therapy I graduated from group the week after my birthday but I'm about to go back in because I have dreams of it I'm really hurt its hard to ignore it push it aside even talk about it and try to face it head on it only makes me relapse no I do not cut for attention I hide mine so nobody knew I don't do it deep to kill myself I do it to feel what different pain feels like and it was paper cut like things just with a lot of blood not to much to not control but enough to satisfy myself. All my friends left when they heard guess word travels pretty fast

donnawanda
donnawanda
I'm so sorry this happened to you. It is horrible to be used and hurt like that. I don't think cutting is about getting attention. I think it's about managing your feelings when you have to manage them all by yourself. It's good you'll be getting back into therapy. I'm sorry about your friends, too. It stinks they behaved like that.
LuckyEmpath
LuckyEmpath
I am also very sorry that this happened to you. I know it is so hard to face what happened to you and talk about it face to face with a therapist but I promise you that if you do talk about it you can heal it. There is no way to push it aside for the rest of your life - it's there and it needs to be healed. There is no way to "just forget about it" either - that's what I was always told or "leave the past in the past". It's just not possible. Healing is possible so please do start talking about it.

Cutting definitely is not about getting attention. Any good therapist will explain to anyone who thinks that that cutting is about feeling - just as you said. When people cut they want to feel a physical pain to help keep them away from the emotional torture going on inside of them. I am glad you can see and understand this. I hope you will get the help you need so you can heal and so you can stop cutting. You can heal and you deserve to heal but it does take a lot of work. You can do it! (Hugs)
WallbrownF
WallbrownF
I'm so very sorry to hear that you have found yourself in this situation, but know that there is love here. Know that you are safe and that we want to help you. I'm glad to hear that you were going to therapy. I can't say I have experience with cutting, but I know that I'd like to help you stop. I'm sorry your friends left when they needed you. Have you thought about joining a group for cutting? I don't know where you live, but I'm assuming you were in a group for rape. Do you think that there is a management aspect to your cutting like DW & LE said? What is it that appeals to you about cutting? Just the pain? Is it pleasurable to experience some pain or is it just a diversion? I also think you could benefit from a personal therapist. Love & Hugs
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