Sexual Abuse Support Group
Sexual abuse is a relative cultural term used to describe sexual relations and behavior between two or more parties which are considered criminally and/or morally offensive. Different types of sexual abuse involve: Non-consensual, forced physical sexual behavior such as rape, incest or sexual assault, or psychological forms of abuse, such as verbal sexual behavior or...
I was abused my entire childhood by both my mother and stepfather. My mother continued the abuse into my adulthood.I still hear her voice in my head saying I'm stupid, ugly, selfish, a slut, evil ....
My mother emotionally, verbally and physically abused me. She also, neglected me as much as she could get away with. I think she sexually abused me, but I can't pull up the memories. She teased me constantly and encouraged my sisters to tease me and beat me up.
My stepfather verbally and physically abused me. He also molested and raped me when I was in my teens.
Reporting the rape to the police was one of the worst experiences in my life. The police officer acted like I was a liar and a waste of her time. She said I wasn't molested because I was too old and that I wasn't raped because 14 year of physical and verbal abuse was no excuse to be to afraid to say no.
I"m over 40 years old now and these and other experiences related to them still affect my life now. I'm so tired of the pain. It feels like everytime I think I'm past what happened, it comes crashing back down on me.
I have other issues that don't help the situation. I suffer from anxiety, PTSD and ADHD. I also, think I might be autistic because of the way I have in the past and now relate to people.
I feel so lost. I'm not sure what to do. I can't get back in therapy. I can't get my meds. The only thing that keeps me from killing myself is that it would hurt my sons if I did. They are both autistic and I think it would crush them.
What should I do?
My mother emotionally, verbally and physically abused me. She also, neglected me as much as she could get away with. I think she sexually abused me, but I can't pull up the memories. She teased me constantly and encouraged my sisters to tease me and beat me up.
My stepfather verbally and physically abused me. He also molested and raped me when I was in my teens.
Reporting the rape to the police was one of the worst experiences in my life. The police officer acted like I was a liar and a waste of her time. She said I wasn't molested because I was too old and that I wasn't raped because 14 year of physical and verbal abuse was no excuse to be to afraid to say no.
I"m over 40 years old now and these and other experiences related to them still affect my life now. I'm so tired of the pain. It feels like everytime I think I'm past what happened, it comes crashing back down on me.
I have other issues that don't help the situation. I suffer from anxiety, PTSD and ADHD. I also, think I might be autistic because of the way I have in the past and now relate to people.
I feel so lost. I'm not sure what to do. I can't get back in therapy. I can't get my meds. The only thing that keeps me from killing myself is that it would hurt my sons if I did. They are both autistic and I think it would crush them.
What should I do?
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I feel so dirty and used I was drunk and passed out at a party when I came around some guy was on top of me rapeing me he covered my mouth and told me to shut up afterwards he got up and got dressed and said I better not tell anyone I found my friend and reported that I had been raped after having medical checks and them getting DNA I've taken the morning after pill IAM just so depressed and...
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Upon his departure, he remarked, "I am in many people’s pockets; no one will believe you." Have you ever grappled with the silence that follows sexual assault, where the perceived impossibility of being believed necessitates self-censorship?
I found free therapy by calling RAINN's hotline. I called the hotline even though the abuse happened over 40 years ago, and they were so kind. Maybe give them a call?
Www.rainn.org
mommato2lilmonkeys
I know the abuse wasn't my fault logical, I just can't stop the feeling that it is.
I've been trying to get a psychiatrist and therapist through Medicare supplemental insurance since 2008.
I will try the number for free services. I'm also trying to get back into Grady so I can at least get my meds