Sexual Abuse Support Group
Sexual abuse is a relative cultural term used to describe sexual relations and behavior between two or more parties which are considered criminally and/or morally offensive. Different types of sexual abuse involve: Non-consensual, forced physical sexual behavior such as rape, incest or sexual assault, or psychological forms of abuse, such as verbal sexual behavior or...
...there's a not-so-good-one that happens.
The good thing happening here is that I joined DS and already have three friends.
The bad ting is that I am anxious, pissed, mad at myself and very worried about something that happened today. I manage computer classes and have a staff of 6 computer instructors. I speak a second language and there's demand for classes in that language so even though I'm not supposed to teach I teach in the other language.
Since I don't like my working situation, going to another site and being in a classroom is something I love. Today before leaving to teach we had a meeting which I had to conduct. No one had anything to take notes (I'm leaving details as to why), so I pulled out my notepad and ripped two pages for the note taker and gave her the notepad to write on. I forgot that the notepad was my personal journal that I keep and write my thoughts.
After the meeting I forgot to ask for it back and I went to teach my class. I am very afraid that not only she was indiscreet about reading it. I wouldn't be surprised if they shared my personal thoughts among themselves.
My job situation is disgusting. It's a very hostile environment and the bunch of young people I have to manage are very cocky and disrespectful. Needless to say I am isolated and without any support and I just hate the place as well as their attitudes. Now I have to worry about them reading my personal journal. I am so upset.
The good thing happening here is that I joined DS and already have three friends.
The bad ting is that I am anxious, pissed, mad at myself and very worried about something that happened today. I manage computer classes and have a staff of 6 computer instructors. I speak a second language and there's demand for classes in that language so even though I'm not supposed to teach I teach in the other language.
Since I don't like my working situation, going to another site and being in a classroom is something I love. Today before leaving to teach we had a meeting which I had to conduct. No one had anything to take notes (I'm leaving details as to why), so I pulled out my notepad and ripped two pages for the note taker and gave her the notepad to write on. I forgot that the notepad was my personal journal that I keep and write my thoughts.
After the meeting I forgot to ask for it back and I went to teach my class. I am very afraid that not only she was indiscreet about reading it. I wouldn't be surprised if they shared my personal thoughts among themselves.
My job situation is disgusting. It's a very hostile environment and the bunch of young people I have to manage are very cocky and disrespectful. Needless to say I am isolated and without any support and I just hate the place as well as their attitudes. Now I have to worry about them reading my personal journal. I am so upset.
I think anywhere you are, you are always going to find the select few that are real as*&(&#@
It's early in the morning and I'm on my way to work. I feel less anxious now. Your kind words are very supportive. This is the first time that i share something like this to anyone, and it feels good to have support and not feeling that I am the only person in the world that goes through bad stuff.
Work and career is where one can see my struggles and inability to survive properly in this world. I have a lot of issues around work and though looking for another job is definitely what i am doing, there's more to that issue. I am looking but I'm very insecure about my next move.
But even if the worst case is true, you didn't do anything wrong. So if you're right and some pinhead(s) decides to be dishonorable, that's on them. As far as mistakes go, this one is pretty recoverable.
As for the rest, be happy with the small steps. You're actively pursuing ways to improve your life, career, etc. It may not all happen overnight, but it will never happen if you don't ever try... and you're trying. Remember what Gretzky said... you miss 100% of the shots you don't take. You've taken steps in your personal life to resolve some things, you're managing your professional life as best you can and surviving and looking for ways to improve that.
Sadly I have in fact used the term "high school" to describe my place of work. It really is bad. In therapy I talk a lot about it and I can see that it is a sick dysfunctional dynamic happening there.
I do have a plan to move on and I made the commitment of doing at least one thing towards my plan.
I least I have my thoughts back. I also made the commitment not to dwell on whether or not they read it.