I was attacked twice by the same person. I have told my parents but my mom said to keep it quite, to her it was something to shove under the rug and forget. I still now struggle everyday with the attacks and at times I just want to die. My attacker still comes around which means I have to face him almost everyday. Well one night my best friend came over to stay and we were sitting out at a bon fire and we both went inside to bed. I went to my room to change and she went to the bathroom. Well she used the downstairs bathroom since it was the closest from just coming in from outside, well later that night while talking before bed, she told me that when she was coming up from downstairs my attacker started touching her downstairs and then followed her up to my room until she ran into my room. when she told me that I just wanted to die!! I knew that my attacker was bad news, I felt so awful that he touched her. When she told me that I broke down crying and apologized but that still will never be enough. I feel as if I had done that to her, I feel so guilty and I just cant do this anymore. I hate him and want him to pay for what he did to her and for making me feel so bad for everything!! I just want to die to make it up to my best friend. My best friend says that she is fine and that she never even thinks about it, she just thought it was kinda weird that he did that to her. She thought that he like her in a crush sort of way. She said that she never thought of it in a bad way. But only if she knew what he is truly like and that the guy is not like the way she thinks he is, only if she knew that if no one was with her, he would of raped her. Ugh I feel so awful, it was bad enough to be raped by him twice but to have him go after my best friend made me feel like I cause it. I cant do it anymore, I cant let him hurt anyone, im gonna tell someone besides my parents even though if they dont kill me, telling someone else will. Im really scared and just need to know what to do from here.