Sexual Abuse Support Group

Sexual abuse is a relative cultural term used to describe sexual relations and behavior between two or more parties which are considered criminally and/or morally offensive. Different types of sexual abuse involve: Non-consensual, forced physical sexual behavior such as rape, incest or sexual assault, or psychological forms of abuse, such as verbal sexual behavior or...

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littleone75 04/13/2017

hello... i don't know where to start or if anyone care but i decided to give it a shot anyway..

i was abuse sexually by the son of my stepmother at the wedding of my stepmother with my father. We were all very happy and drunk. We had a house full of bedrooms with different parts. I went to bed in my room, my "brother" knocked on the door when i was already asleep, said he couldn't sleep and want it to talk so i let him in. guess he didn't want to talk after all. I wanted to wait until marrriage and the only thing that stop him from taking everything was that i had my period. he got angry and left.

i cried a lot and then pretended it never happen. only told my bestfriend. somedays it's like wounds are fresh like the first day. i don't want to ruin my father hapiness he already gave up so much for me.

i feel so ashame of myself. i watched a tv show call 13 reasons why and so here i am vulnerable in front of you. help me please

LuckyEmpath 04/13/2017

Hello and welcome to the group. I am very sorry this happened to you. It is very brave of you to take the first steps in talking about what happened. The people on this board are very caring and understanding.

The thing with abuse of any kind is you can't just forget it. Or as many of us are told, you can't just "get over it". Healing is possible though and you deserve to heal. I would urge you to work with a therapist so you can heal. A good therapist can help you heal all the feelings that are ao overwhelming right now. If, however, you are unable to work with a therapist right now then please keep coming here and talking with us.

WallbrownF 04/18/2017

Welcome to the group. I'm also very sorry that this happened to you and you are brave for coming here. LE is right. But, also, if your father loves you, then this shouldn't be a matter of ruining his happiness, but a matter of healing his daughter and helping her find solace again. Also, you have no reason to be ashamed. You are a victim of an unfortunate circumstance. Love & Hugs

littleone75 05/16/2017

I want to thank you both for your replies. I went to see a therapist but I couldn't tell her the truth so i was hiding behind other problems. It felt like admitting the truth would make it real.
I was diagnosed of a PTS but it's like a distant reality problem. Most of the days I can easily convince myself that I'm happy but I wish I could just showered it away. The problem with my father is that I don't want him to divorce my stepmother whom I love also.

I have a boyfriend now but I didn't tell him about it and it fells like I'm lying to him but I'm so afraid of his reaction
Thank you so much for this safety zone

LuckyEmpath 05/18/2017

It is always difficult to say the words out loud to anyone - even a therapist. Sometimes what people do is write it down and hand it to their therapist. That kind-of breaks the ice. You are not really talking about it but it's also no longer a secret. Hopefully you can use this technique the next time you work with a therapist.

littleone75 05/18/2017

I will try, thank you !

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