Sexual Abuse Support Group
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Just venting. This is the only place I have to really let the pissy feelings out. So it's a sunny Saturday. I was in a good mood when I woke up. I had some tentative plans for the day but somehow I ended up doing nothing except lay down for a quick nap that lasted 3 hours. I think I have undiagnosed sleep apnea and as soon as I get the finances figured out I will have a sleep study. But anyway....I'm always so freakin tired. I can fall asleep anywhere, anytime and I feel like I wasted the day. Not only did I sleep for 3 hours but I had the worst nightmare that I have had in years. Took me right back to childhood and abuse.
Then I realize that I missed a call from my daughter saying she was having car trouble. She had managed to get ahold of her dad and she is able to drive the car for now so it's ok.
Of course she has no money saved for car repairs because she is 19 and just got her first job (and first car) and planning ahead does not come natural to her.
Yep...I feel like a selfish mom. I have bills coming out my butt like explosive diarrhea. I can't really afford to cover hers. I did keep her on my insurance to help her out with that expense (it doubled my insurance premium). I took next week off work for a little "me" time. Now it looks like I will be babysitting the 19 YO again.
In her defense she doesn't plan it but the last 3 times I have taken a day or two off from work she has had some crisis.
Bahh Humbug!!!!
I guess I am in bitch mode now
Then I realize that I missed a call from my daughter saying she was having car trouble. She had managed to get ahold of her dad and she is able to drive the car for now so it's ok.
Of course she has no money saved for car repairs because she is 19 and just got her first job (and first car) and planning ahead does not come natural to her.
Yep...I feel like a selfish mom. I have bills coming out my butt like explosive diarrhea. I can't really afford to cover hers. I did keep her on my insurance to help her out with that expense (it doubled my insurance premium). I took next week off work for a little "me" time. Now it looks like I will be babysitting the 19 YO again.
In her defense she doesn't plan it but the last 3 times I have taken a day or two off from work she has had some crisis.
Bahh Humbug!!!!
I guess I am in bitch mode now
Sorry to hear of the finance issues - seems like no matter what salary bracket we are in, finances is always an issue - for many of us anyway. And 19 YO's can be very trying - but it is good you help support her when you can. 19 is a tough time for both child and parents - at least it was for me!
And the nap - you say you wasted the day, but it also sounds like you got some much needed rest. That is an important task when dealing with other issues that stress you out. Self care is a task not to be taken lightly. Odd how it seems that your days off are used to help someone else instead of yourself, but I guess that is life. Hard to predict and prepare for.
Hope that venting helped a little - it has been a mainstay for me in the past, as I tend to internalize stress and have to let it out in order not to blow up - blow ups hurt me and usually those around me, so I vent when needed.
You are in my thoughts - hope things get better soon -
Refuse2quit
Hope that thought helps a little - glad to hear you are passed your bummer mood - it always helps to let a little steam off now and then!!
Refuse2quit