Sexual Abuse Support Group
Sexual abuse is a relative cultural term used to describe sexual relations and behavior between two or more parties which are considered criminally and/or morally offensive. Different types of sexual abuse involve: Non-consensual, forced physical sexual behavior such as rape, incest or sexual assault, or psychological forms of abuse, such as verbal sexual behavior or...
Hi everyone, there are so many happy and wonderful things happening in my life right now but I'm still really struggling. It's like now that I am in a good place in my life all these issues come forward telling me I need to deal with them.
I haven't fully accepted my abuse, all this information is there and it's just slowly eating away at me. I'm just now cutting off contact with my father, who was the perpetrator, which means cutting off contact with many others. I just wish I could start over with all the right people, and none of the hurt.
I'm so scared to face it all, I've got an amazingly supportive husband and I just feel like I have to face it alone. I'm the only one who is feeling what I'm feeling and it's hard to put into words. It's all so overwhelming and I want this all to go away, but it won't. It feels like a huge part of me is gone and now I'm less than I should be/could have been.
I just don't know what to do anymore, but I hope that whoever you are reading this are doing doing well.
It's always frightening and overwhelming when you're taking new steps of healing. I know that feeling of being alone (even though I'm in a healthy supportive relationship), because no one can really know my feelings. And I remember feeling broken, like something precious had been stolen from me while I was a child. But I don't feel "broken" now, not anymore.
I'm frightened of choosing the wrong words here. This is what I strongly believe in: No huge part of you has gone and you're not less than you should be or could have been. You are you and all you are is still there. Some parts may show up strongly and others remain hidden for some time, but none disappear. You are whole. I know it doesn't always feel like this and I don't want to say in any way that your feelings are wrong. It's just that I used to feel the way your feeling now and I don't anymore. I'm trying to tell you that it does get better, actually.
*sigh* it's so difficult to find the right words. If I offended anyone I'm deeply sorry, it wasn't my intention at all.
*sending encouragement, hope and strength to you*