Sexual Abuse Support Group

Sexual abuse is a relative cultural term used to describe sexual relations and behavior between two or more parties which are considered criminally and/or morally offensive. Different types of sexual abuse involve: Non-consensual, forced physical sexual behavior such as rape, incest or sexual assault, or psychological forms of abuse, such as verbal sexual behavior or...

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PeekAhBooGirl 07/09/2018

I almost had a bit of a breakdown before Saturday.. Started crying (almost stopped) while driving to Scheels Saturday, had a partial breakdown in the bathroom at walmart Saturday.. Tears started leaking Sunday after dropping the cute boy off.. Partial vreakdown in shower right now

I dont think I can do it with the cute boy.. Any of it, relationship.. I'm feeling bad, and uneasy,

I dont want to do this

Not anymore

I dont know how to tell him without breaking him apart.. Or making it seem like its his falt

He is supposed to come over Tuesday.. Left a movie and game here

I dont know what to do

I cant do this

He said he loved me

I dont know what to do

I like him.. But dont love him

We gotin a heated make out session

With everything i feel guilty and horrible and terrible.. I want to cry

refurb 07/09/2018

it takes real strength to be honest with oneself as you are doing so
sleep on your feelings & thoughts
let things settle out and see if if you view them differently, if not be honest with the boy, even if it makes him sad, in the long you'll have been kind rather than fooling him and yourself to be "nice"

Beatha 07/10/2018

I totally agree on the "let it settle" part and on honesty. Many times in the past, my own feelings got extremely confused, I didn't know "do I love him or not? Am I just scared?" And so on. In my experience, the only way to figure it out is take it slowly and give yourself time. From your other post, before this one, I gather he might just be someone willing to give you that time.

Honesty is essential in relationships.

Comforting hugs, PeekAhBooGirl. You're confused, as far as I know all survivors of sexual abuse get confused.

AnnieToman 07/12/2018

god , girl, i finally understand you, wondered why a girl your age had so much trouble with boys, now i know, god i feel so bad when i see the end results of abuse, makes me think hard, and question my own worth, seeing this made me feel very very bad. im deeply sorry your feeling this way.

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