Sexual Abuse Support Group
Sexual abuse is a relative cultural term used to describe sexual relations and behavior between two or more parties which are considered criminally and/or morally offensive. Different types of sexual abuse involve: Non-consensual, forced physical sexual behavior such as rape, incest or sexual assault, or psychological forms of abuse, such as verbal sexual behavior or...
I am soooo ashamed of what I just did. I asked the lord to forgive me and I could feel him telling me to confess out loud and I really don't want to because it's so bad. I don't even know how to start I'm so paniced because it's so gross!! I have never done this before or even thought of it. Please don't judge me for it. I'm so ashamed. ok here it goes I went to bed and I don't know what came over me oh my gosh this is so embarrassing. I had that feeling of needing sex and this is so not me because I don't know if it's from the past abuse but I am terrified of sex. I'v never willingly had it. But I got peanut butter and put it down there and got the dogs to lick it. I am so sorry I did it and never again I feel like such a freak.
Has anyone done something like this or am I just so discusting? Could this sudden impulse be from the effects of the past abuse? I am so ashamed and it tears just mortified!
Has anyone done something like this or am I just so discusting? Could this sudden impulse be from the effects of the past abuse? I am so ashamed and it tears just mortified!
its very brave of you to confess what you did.
Im not sure why you did what you did, it could very well be due to past abuse.
Im not sure how common that type of thing is but my ex got his dog to lick his penis when he was a teenager for a few years (he wasnt abused). It weirded me out a little but I didnt judge him. Im pretty open minded. The only things Im against is when someone is being hurt or when children are abused. In your case you were not hurting your dogs so I dont think you are bad. I would even go as far to say each to their own although personally that is not something I would be into myself.
I guess the problem is you feel shame because in the eyes of society, what you have done is wrong.
I say, dont beat urself up. If you are not proud of yourself and dont want to do it again perhaps see a therapist who may be able to help you overcome this.
ppl who have dogs usually have a strong bond with them and apparently dogs show their owners unconditional love and dont hurt them. perhaps you feel you can trust your dogs more than human beings and that is why you were able to be sexual with them but feel repulsed by men. As human beings it is normal to have sexual urges and since you cant do that with a man perhaps ur urges overwhelmed you.
well anyhow, not sure if Im making things worse for you but I dont judge you and I hope that you can move on from this incident without being hard on urself.
take care