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Battling self-harm, frustrated

Kate1976
Kate1976

I have a history of self-harm dating back to when I was small.  As a child, after abuse, I would punch myself in the arm.  In high school, I started cutting.  I have been working with my therapist and have not cut for 9 weeks.  I was especially triggered last week but didn't want to cut.  Went back to my old standby.  When I was honest about it with my therapist, I felt extremely embarrassed and like a total failure.  She said it will be incredibly difficult to stop because I have been doing it for so long.  Made me feel like I am screwed and my situation is pretty hopeless.  Is there any hope?

donnawanda
donnawanda
Oh yes there is! And how can you doubt it, when you've been doing so great?! Nine weeks without cutting, and then - what - a punch in the arm? That's really an excellent achievement and something I have no doubt you will build on.

I think when your therapist talked about how difficult it is she was giving you credit for how great you've been doing!
Kate1976
Kate1976
Thanks, I will try to focus on the positive.
WallbrownF
WallbrownF
I agree with DW. There is hope, and what's more, you're moving in the right direction. Keep up the momentum, and remember that we're here for you, even if you think it isn't important or silly. You're important to us.
dysfunctionallyfunctional
dysfunctionallyfunctional
There is no failure in talking about it and being a work in progress. Some days will be harder than others. I think what makes self harm embarrassing to talk about, is that it is seen by others who don't self harm as taboo. The fact that you sought help is a huge accomplishment in itself. Talking about on this platform is going to be a huge role in your recovery, because it is an added support system. Keep your chin held high and remember that you are worth it and that you will overcome! Stay positive my friend. I've been in your shoes, and I know it isn't always easy, there is a light at the end of the tunnel though and I promise you this, that light will continue to grow and lead you to a better, healthier place.
Kate1976
Kate1976
Thanks again to both of you! I told my therapist I would like to discuss it next week. If I can't talk about it, it isn't going to get better. Battling solo for 35 years hasn't worked. Going to finally open up to help. I will admit writing about it makes me miss the release/ rush. Marathon runner but going out for a smoke. Thanks again
WallbrownF
WallbrownF
You're very welcome, Kate! I'm glad we could help. Don't be a stranger.
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