Sexual Abuse Support Group
Sexual abuse is a relative cultural term used to describe sexual relations and behavior between two or more parties which are considered criminally and/or morally offensive. Different types of sexual abuse involve: Non-consensual, forced physical sexual behavior such as rape, incest or sexual assault, or psychological forms of abuse, such as verbal sexual behavior or...
It's midnight where I live and I can't sleep because everytime I close my eyes I see him the man who abused me when I was a child. I'm just so angry all the time and easily upset I snap at mum for know reason and she keeps asking me what's wrong and want she doesn't get is that mood swings are not down to her it's because of what happened to me growing and not just the sexual abuse my parents friend did to me but also the physical abuse my dad did to me. I keep on having nightmares and crying myself to sleep even though want happen to me happen such a long time ago it haunts me like it was yesterday I want to get on with my life but I find it very hard to trust people so I fear I will be on my own for ever I really want to tell my mum wants going on in my head but she doesn't believe that I was sexually abused why would I make something like that up I'm so messed up I just don't know to do I going to try and sleep for a few hours and hope my nightmares don't return thanks in advance to who ever reads this
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Middy is off for a bit so if anyone needs a CL please just give me a shoutSending a big hug...xo
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I feel so dirty and used I was drunk and passed out at a party when I came around some guy was on top of me rapeing me he covered my mouth and told me to shut up afterwards he got up and got dressed and said I better not tell anyone I found my friend and reported that I had been raped after having medical checks and them getting DNA I've taken the morning after pill IAM just so depressed and...
It is particularly important that you find support since you say your mother does not believe you were abused. Such denial is not uncommon, I've heard. Many mothers have a hard time accepting that they did not protect their child from such a terrible and damaging experience.
I believe you and I am sure that everyone else who's read your post believes you as well. Please feel free to lean on us for support, and share whatever you would like to share so that you do not have to carry your secrets alone. I hope you will also find a therapist who specializes in trauma and sexual abuse to help you heal from it all.
I'm sorry that your mother isn't supportive of you and doesn't believe you, that's not right. I don't know her specific reasoning (and I know this doesn't make it much better) but maybe she just can't bare the thought of it having happened to you and you going through that.
I'm sorry for what you've been through, I just wanted to let you know that you are not alone.
I do want to ask "are you seeing a therapist?" If not, we can all help in finding one. If you're here in the states, or the U.K., or Australia... it doesn't matter, we are (sadly) everywhere.
No one here will say 'it's been XX years, get over it' or ' I just swept it under the rug, so you can too' ( I've heard that in real life, not here).
Please, find someone to talk to... Sometimes family isn't the best ones TO talk to...
Even if it's just here... write a journal, make your profile 'friends only' and then be careful who you let in ( I always ask anyone who friends me 'why do you want to be my friend?' It's just me)
Now for the good part...
I want to say how strong it is if you to even be here.
It takes strength to open up! That's great!
you will (slowly) regain your strength..
Please, do not compare yourself to anyone else... This will destroy you.
I was raped when I was about 12, and molested when I was 5...
I can openly talk about just about everything... Only because I have regained my power that they took from me.
In no way did it happen over night... I think I've been on this site for 7 years.... When I started, I was just like you... I met some great folks over the years, and about 3 very close friends... Two I still keep in contact with regularly...
But, again, non of this happened fast...
But we are all here for you!
Whether you talk to me, or someone else... I encourage it.
I have a motto
" I will never ask a question, that I am not willing to answer myself"
Last thing I ever want to do is make a person nervous about talking..
I know what that's like too...
You are not alone in anything your dealing with...
Really, you're not!
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