Sexual Abuse Support Group
Sexual abuse is a relative cultural term used to describe sexual relations and behavior between two or more parties which are considered criminally and/or morally offensive. Different types of sexual abuse involve: Non-consensual, forced physical sexual behavior such as rape, incest or sexual assault, or psychological forms of abuse, such as verbal sexual behavior or...

It has helped me, being here at DS, to process my memories, pains, and emotions, so many of them so often confused by conflicting elements of which you have written about yourself here. RAINN will also be able to give you resource that may help you get out of the abusive situation that is ongoing.
You are not alone in your pain , Peek. Many of us at DS are here with similar and yet so very unique circumstances and we can and do support each other as we all seek to heal. Triple hugs and please stay as safe as you can and seek outnas many resources that you feel comfortable reaching out for because they will all add little bits of strength to you as you heal ((((((peek)))))