Sexual Abuse Support Group
Sexual abuse is a relative cultural term used to describe sexual relations and behavior between two or more parties which are considered criminally and/or morally offensive. Different types of sexual abuse involve: Non-consensual, forced physical sexual behavior such as rape, incest or sexual assault, or psychological forms of abuse, such as verbal sexual behavior or...
My Story
For years I carried guilt
Toxic shame I carried too
I was just a foster child
There were secrets
NO ONE KNEW
The little child inside of me
She lived a life of hell
Rape, abuse, despair was mine
A voice that COULD NOT TELL
Telling wasn't an option
Had to stuff the rage inside
Had to suffer at THEIR hands
There were tears that were not cried
My feelings were not valued
"Shut up, get out of my sight"
Words that touched my very core
Very soon I lost the fight
If I fought to save myself
It would always be in vain
Invisible was I
Alone with all this pain
Sometimes the hurt would sear
The soul that dwelled inside
No place would I find safe
A living torment I long denied
Heavy was my heart and soul
Places too deep to feel
Looking for love in those I met
A few moments I would steal
No one saw the sadness
No one saw the pain
No one saw the heartache
No sunshine, only rain
But I knew there was a warrior
Waiting for my call
No longer could I silence her
And now she is standing tall
I broke that silence years ago
With courage and with power
No longer will I fear
No longer will I cower
My voice is now my story
Of a pain I held inside
Now the tears are flowing
These hurts no longer denied
They thought they killed my spirit
Today I know I'm strong
And that I am of value
And that I do belong
Jeanette Nov 2007
For years I carried guilt
Toxic shame I carried too
I was just a foster child
There were secrets
NO ONE KNEW
The little child inside of me
She lived a life of hell
Rape, abuse, despair was mine
A voice that COULD NOT TELL
Telling wasn't an option
Had to stuff the rage inside
Had to suffer at THEIR hands
There were tears that were not cried
My feelings were not valued
"Shut up, get out of my sight"
Words that touched my very core
Very soon I lost the fight
If I fought to save myself
It would always be in vain
Invisible was I
Alone with all this pain
Sometimes the hurt would sear
The soul that dwelled inside
No place would I find safe
A living torment I long denied
Heavy was my heart and soul
Places too deep to feel
Looking for love in those I met
A few moments I would steal
No one saw the sadness
No one saw the pain
No one saw the heartache
No sunshine, only rain
But I knew there was a warrior
Waiting for my call
No longer could I silence her
And now she is standing tall
I broke that silence years ago
With courage and with power
No longer will I fear
No longer will I cower
My voice is now my story
Of a pain I held inside
Now the tears are flowing
These hurts no longer denied
They thought they killed my spirit
Today I know I'm strong
And that I am of value
And that I do belong
Jeanette Nov 2007
deleted_user
That is beautiful. Shows the progress you made.
deleted_user
This made me cry, you are very good about showing your recovery, as well as what you needed to recover from. XOXO
deleted_user
Well said, clear and beautiful. You write very well. I am so sorry that you suffered like you did. Makes me sad. But thank goodness some of us can write poetry and get to the truth of what happened and have that much needed emotional release that writing promotes. Thank you for sharing your poem, I understood it and liked it very much. I wish you well.
deleted_user
very nice
Join the Conversation
-
theatre and I are there already. I'm having a very berry tea with crackers, cheese and cherry tomatoes and she's having a joint with some beer and we're both on really comfy recliners on thick pile carpet. we need some help with the decor if anyone is around??
-
I'm trying to exercise daily. I was doing fairly well until I sprained my ankle 2 weeks ago but now I'm getting back on the horse. Today I walked over a mile with my arm weights that are about 22lbs total. I was out of shape and it was hard on my arms. I also did my 30 situps. I'm also going to drink a lot of water and try to eat healthy. I do tend to have a sweet tooth but I'm cutting...
