Reading all the stories in this group has been extremely inspiring. Knowing that I am not the only one going through this situation is such a relief to myself.

I have been struggling with this situation since the age of 12 years old. As the years went on my impulses kept growing and up to this point I am now seeking help. I don't want to feel tied up to this anymore. It has been a distraction and has put me in terrible situations that have affected my life as well as torn apart my image as a person. 

As a child I was introduced to this by a family member who did a terrible thing to me. And ever since then it has affected me tremendously. I went from regular porn to other types of porn to cam to cam. As I got to be more alone the easier it got for me to take on more pleasures that are just hurting me. And afterwards the guilt comes in right. 

I also work from home so it is easy for me to have access, especially being alone. I have tried blocking all the websites and even setting hard passwords but even that hasn’t stopped me. I have also had the urge when I’m out at a store or even at my work office. Looking at other people in a sexual type of way versus a normal way, even friends (not in a healthy sexual way).  

After reading more about this, I have started to notice that my impulses come when I begin to feel lonely, anxious about something or boredom. I have tried to see what else to do about this. 

I haven’t been able to open up to anyone about my situation and it has been tough. Finding this and reading everyone’s stories really is a beginning for me. I look forward to getting better and out of this habit. And I thank you all for sharing your stories.