Sex / Pornography Addiction Support Group
Sexual addiction, also sometimes called sexual compulsion, is a form of psychological addiction to sexual intercourse and other sexual behavior.
I have been struggling with pornography use for over sixteen years. Thank goodness almost all of the pornography I have indulged in has been written and not picture or video pornography as the pictures seem to stay burned into my mind longer. This garbage is literal poison to my brain as I know it is selfish and stirs an evil beast inside me driving me toward lust and adultery. Thus far I have never cheated on my wife with another woman, but I now want to completely rid my life of this. I am able to usually resist presently for up to weeks and longer sometimes as long as about 200 days before succumbing. My life situation is I am married with a wife that has not very good health so sometimes she is not interested in marriage intimacy but this is no excuse. I wish to begin posting on these boards to hold myself accountable and rid my life of this gross habit.
My last act out of written pornography indulgence was on the 12th of December 2018 and I also indulged on the 2nd of December. I could feel temptation very strongly recently to begin to search for videos and pictures on the Internet but I did not, I just read pornography stories. If I do not stop this I fear I will be drawn into visual pornography and even more lust which is worse. The journey of ten thousand miles begins with a single step.
tryingtobestrong23
Welcome I have also just started my journey to rid my life of my addiction to pornography and find coming to this site does help. It is tough to beat this monster inside me but I need to find the person I use to be again. I am tired of having this hanging over my head. I wish you well on your journey and if you ever need someone to talk to feel free to message me.
To-Be-Clean
Thanks for the well wishes. Keep up the good fight. The most important discovery I have made in getting away from pornography is getting involved in good wholesome activities in life. Idle time leads to boredom which can lead to pornography.
SirGrits
To Be Clean hang in there man. Perseverance is hard. I struggle with this as well. Keeping active helps me as well. My life circumstances have also aided immensely. You see, I recently took a job requiring me to wake early in the morning. My struggles are greatest late at night (like most I'm sure) and my bedtime is much earlier then it once was. The Lord works in mysterious ways. Prayer bro.
To-Be-Clean
I was tempted on the 13th of December to look at pornography online but I did not give in. Today is going to be a better day. I'm on day two of being clean. My goal is to make forty days of being clean. After this I will set another goal. I will take it one day at a time.
To-Be-Clean
It is day six of being clean. I keep praying to the LORD and asking for strength and health to overcome this sin. I must remain humble.
To-Be-Clean
It is now day eight of being clean. I am trying to keep myself busy and involved in good things. I feel better about myself. Sometimes I have sexual thoughts lingering longer than they should but I have not given in to lust. My wife has been generous with intimacy lately which helps me a lot. This website even has written pornography in it so I must be cautious what I read. Keep fighting out there people.
To-Be-Clean
It is now day ten for me. I have really been struggling the last few days. My mind has been focused where it should not have been but I have not given into looking at pornography. By accident I recently ran into pornography on the Internet but I did not linger. Still I am fighting and will continue to seek to have a virtuous mind.
Mave
Keep going, TBC. You can this! I know that it will be a battle, but you’ve already come so far.
To-Be-Clean
Thanks for the encouragement Mave. It is day thirteen of being chaste and clean and I feel very good. I know the temptations will come back though. Thus far I am keeping myself busy and involved in good activities. We all just need to take it one day at a time.
To-Be-Clean
It is now day eighteen of the journey. I am feeling peace of conscience. It feels good to not have this hidden secret indulgence of pornography going on in my life. But I cannot let my guard down. I know a wave of temptation will strike at some point in the future and I must fortify myself in the strength of God.
To-Be-Clean
I am now on day 23 of my journey. Praise the LORD I have not given in to temptation yet. I give Him the glory for my victory thus far.
TonyNew
I am day 2, my computer calls me but i'm fighting.
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