I also struggle with pornography addiction, I have been since my preteen years. YOU ARE NOT ALONE. We have to transmit that sexual energy into something more constructive; something you're passionate about, for me it's the arts. Focusing my energy on various projects has reduced the amount of time I watch porn,and helps me make more time for my responsibilities. Hope this helps.

Needhelpz, It sounds like your porn addiction has caused a lot of pain and put lots of strain on your important relationships. I find that it can be really difficult to simply be aware when there’s so much frustration around something. If you haven’t already, you can try to become more aware of the context and triggers that drive your porn-watching habit.

NeedHelpz What does the porn do for you? Help you relax? Focus? Avoid negative feelings? It is doing its job for you and serving you well. the question to consider is what is it doing for you?

One thing that in your first 12-step meeting is that you hear someone share some deeply painful, disgusting, or hurtful story. If you heard it at the mall, you would be disgusted, or judgy. Then something happens. Everyone in the room says "thanks for sharing!" No judgement, no criticism, no shaming, just scripted, authentic, unconditional acceptance.

After practicing giving and receiving this structured unconditional love for a while. you begin to realize that you are not despicable, unlovable, and disgusting as you thought you were. You are human. That is when acceptance starts. Then as you begin to accept your true self with no hiding. You begin to see that the addiction is about avoiding authenticity, feelings, and pain.

Addiction is about hiding. Sobriety is about authenticity. Recovery is about helping others be authentic.