Sex / Pornography Addiction Support Group

Sexual addiction, also sometimes called sexual compulsion, is a form of psychological addiction to sexual intercourse and other sexual behavior.

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PlushieCat 01/25/2022

I have a problem. I am 34 years old. I have a long messed up history. I am addicted to sex. The other day I met a stranger and had unprotected sex. I didn't even like the guy. When I met him I wasn't interested at all, it was like I couldn't control my body. I left shortly after crying all the way home.

I called planned parenthood to get prescribed the morning after pill. I will be taking it tomorrow. I hadn't had sex for over a year and some months. I don't even know what possessed me to do it.

I dont know where to go, who to talk to. I was never a sexual person before. I was molested when I was 8, it only happened the one time. After that I avoided all things sexual. I didn't have a boyfriend till I was about 19. But even then I did sexual acts on men without feelings. Then I was raped at 21, that was the first time I ever had intercourse. After that I did hook ups and one night stands.

I tried doing relationships, they never worked out well. I would be abused by all of them in different ways. My longest relationship was 5 years. I never stepped out of the relationships physically. I did sometimes do sexting and video or photos.

I am dead inside. I'm so desperate to feel wanted and loved. I do not know what to do.

I deleted my dating apps and I blocked the random men I was talking to.

I need help, there is more. I'm just so dang lost right now.

DragonsAreAwesome11 01/25/2022

I know this might not be something you believe in, but talking to God and getting involved in a church could really help. Of course, if you believe in something else, I completely respect that. But reading the Bible and talking to God is something that can make you feel a lot less alone and a lot less lost. I apologize if this is offensive, these are my personal beliefs. A good church can really be a life saver, and good people even more so. I'm praying for you, and I wish you good luck with whatever you decide to do. You can do this. Just stay strong.

PlushieCat 01/26/2022

With everything horrible that has happened to me and continues to happen to me. I wont lie I've kind of lost my faith. I want to believe I really do. I just wish I knew why I had to be in so much pain all the time.

BlueCrow625 01/26/2022

You aren't alone. I have felt addicted and done with it too at the same time. I am glad you are working hard, but I am sorry that you have to! Just remember, cats have multiple lives, You still have plenty of time to change for the better

PlushieCat 01/27/2022

I broke down and messaged someone, I didn't ask them for sex or for video or images. I wanted to. I don't know what I'm going to do. I'm seriously having trouble right now.

BlueCrow625 01/27/2022

You are going through relapse but it sounds like you are still improving. Don't beat yourself up for falling down. As long as you want to change, then you are always moving forward in some way or another

PlushieCat 01/27/2022

I talked to my doctor about talking to someone that specializes in addiction. Her answer is the only person available broke their knee and wont be back to work till sometime in March. I think she hates me. I'm trying so hard but I feel judged.

BlueCrow625 01/27/2022

That is a really hard feeling. Your doctor is meant to be someone who helps you, but many can be dismissive, especially to women. That said, don't listen to them. There are plenty of online specialists who can help you. We can find one together if you like!

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