Sex / Pornography Addiction Support Group
Sexual addiction, also sometimes called sexual compulsion, is a form of psychological addiction to sexual intercourse and other sexual behavior.
I know every addict will try to say they aren't addicted.
My issue is from I have like mental porn thoughts in my head constantly playing. Like a movie except it's in first person like I'm in it. More I try to remove this thought more I end thinking of this.
That I could remember these scenes aren't even from porn. It's like it was fabricated in my head. I'll spare the details but basically there's like two versions of the thought. One of them is so wholesome like a romantic sexual scene. And other is like something that is forced like I'm being forced by a nice older guy. But he is reassuring me it's ok but I'm still forced.
Worse off I don't know what I'm actually addicted to. It's either porn, masturbation or sex. Except for the sex part I'm a virgin. But I do esext on occasion. The masturbation part comes in that those thoughts makes me do that. And if don't I'm physically "aroused" including times when I'm outside or worse in class. Porn but is like because it's mental porn.
Rather than try to remove the lustful thoughts they need to be replaced. Likely you have too much idle time on your hands. I have began to play Disk Golf to get involved in other wholesome activities.
Presently I am still in recovery. I believe I am up to 90 days of being clean from sexual indulgence. I am also attending an addiction recovery group.
Pray and spend time with god, I would recommend John Bevere's porn-free course, it's really helped me get a handle on it. The images are still there but I can power through them by reading my bible or working out. It is difficult and I've dealt with it for years but the lord can help you. Nothing worth doing is ever easy and this world will do everything it can to tear us from God our father but we can try, we can do our best to fight the good fight, Our holy father will help us.
We're in a war for our attention, so put as much attention on god as you can, read your bible, pray for deliverance, and more. It's simple advice and I've been doing it for years but it does help, just keep going back to the lord laying your sins bear and praying for help and he will provide refuge and help for you.
God bless you and help you keep up the good fight.
Either way, if you want to stop, then look into stopping. If you're trying to figure out whether you should, well then go back to the beginning of what I wrote.
One thing is for sure, pushing the thoughts away won't help, you need a replacement. And they'll never go away completely, but it will get easier to handle.
Figure out what your goal is and why and you'll have a better time making the decision and following through with it