your not alone! My porn desires changed so much since I started. Used to be just normal sex/ women/ lesbians. And then I started down the rabbit hole and didn’t look back. It went to BBW then to feet to anal play and further and further. Then I started anal by myself. And yeah it’s feels amazing. I haven’t stopped the anal nor have I gotten something stuck. I had the fear of that from day 1. Always need a base. My wife found out about the anal and she was weird about it at first but after a while she accepted it. then I started to really enjoy the look of my penis. I stared to think I was gay or bi, And that’s when I stared looking at gay porn. I didn’t like it, but I did like the look of the penis’ and that led me to trans women. A woman with a penis. And then I went further and stared talking to people and eventually ended up cheating online and my wife found out. It’s been just about a year since she found out and we’re still working on us. So man, your not alone!!

I hope this helps. There’s no reason to need to stop the anal. If that’s what you enjoy, then that’s what you enjoy. Just be safe about it and Just stop the porn. I still do it but have left the porn out of it. I’m 2 weeks in and feel good about my progress. I hope you can do the same.

I seem to keep it rather vanilla when it comes to porn, but I do find myself trying to find better quality porn or longer scenes with the same or similar actresses.

I kind of started out creepy, then went to normal, then back to creepy again. It's what I found by accident when I was younger, then fell back into as I got worse. Since then, I can definitely say that the creepy has gotten creepier. I've always kind of been in denial that I was ever doing anything sexual, so I've never done much physically, if you know what I mean, so I don't have any experience with that (can you tell talking about it makes me uncomfortable?XD) but I definitely understand the feeling of going down a rabbit hole and hating yourself for where you've come out. You need to find a way to take control of it. I've not been very successful at that, but I'm about a month clean now, so we're gettin' there. At first I tried to wean myself off gently by saying that I would stop the creepy stuff and go back to the normal, but it never lasted forever. Finally I decided it was only going to work if I just quit all together. Same urges, just better self-control (hopefully). If you let yourself watch the normal by saying it's better than the creepy, you're just gonna find yourself wandering back into the creepy. Or sometimes, just into different creepy. You have to know that you're going too far. You have to take this thing that's trying to control you and tell it to go suck one. Then you have to resist the urge to watch it suck one. I've been doing this alone for years, and the results are very staggered. Back in, back out. Doing better, doing worse. Having someone there to support you is amazing, and you should be very thankful for her. I wish you all the best