I know I am nothing to him, but I am good at convincing myself otherwise long enough to go to him...

Does your husband know about his?

No.

Just like myself- and iam not better than you, you have a disease called sex addiction. People with adictions use sex or drugs or whatever it is they use relief. At some point they realize the behavior that usually gives the them relief becomes harmful and don't work for them anymore. They want to stop but they can't. Willpower becomes non existant despite the consequences.
May be it's hard to digest, but although most addicts can be reasonable in other areas in life, they have no mental defences against engaging in their addictive behavior despite the conseuences. it's plain insanity. The worst part is that we can't stop even if we want to on the basis of our will power or resolutions. We have to get outside help.
Sex addiction is a spiritual disease. Although medical treatment can help a little bit, physician cannot do much in cases like mine or yours.
I strongly recommend getting help by working a 12 step program. If you need some suggestions, let me know.
Take care!

Does it have to be 12 Step? What about recovery nation?

You can try Recovery Nation. but you may have to pay fees to get some body to help you. I don't personally know anyone who recovered using that method but iam not saying you can't get help there. well try everyting you can. If nothing works, then be open to the 12 steps.

In your opinion what is the wifi signal jammer used for? Do you have a basic understanding of the knowledge about it? If you want to know more about it, then you can stop your step at www.jammerall.com then you will get the information and the knowledge you want.

WTH?

That last message is somebody spamming wifi jamming equipment, ignore it.

It sounds to me like the problem you're facing is that you're getting something you need out of this, even if it's an unhealthy way to get it. I won't pretend to know what that is, but going to a good therapist or psychiatrist might help address the underlying issues. That's a way you can get help without directly facing this particular demon.

For some people it's purely a sex addiction, but for others it's like drug addicts who're using it to self-medicate when they should be on more effective prescription medicine for physical or psychological problems.

Thanks for the feedback. I probably do need therapy, but am waffling on whether I am truly addicted, or just have a very high sex drive. I cancelled my AFF account. My lover is overseas for two weeks and I intend to behave while he is gone.

I am still trying to sort all this out in my head. I know a married person should not have lovers, but does that mean addiction? Going to a stranger's house was admittedly stupid and dangerous. I did text him the morning of to tell him I was sick and would need a rain check and he texted back and convinced me to go after all. It worked out well this time, but I will never do that again...

Why doesn't your husband know about this? His life may be endangered too. I think it's ok for you if you choose to risk your life, but, how can you justify risking your Hs life? Doesn't he have the right to choose whether or not he'd like to?

You just went to some stranger's house against all good judgment, risking your own well-being and as well as that of your husband, and you are still questioning whether or not you have an addiction? I think when we find ourselves giving into destructive impulses for the sake of immediate gratification, it is safe to say that we have an addiction.

For your own sake as well as that of your husband, PLEASE get help. And the previous poster is right you owe it to your husband to let him know what's been going on, as you may have already endangered his life.

You might be an addict if... you are petrified of telling the truth, but are fearless about putting your life at risk.

On 04/23/13 you wrote "The stranger part? I think if I were worked up enough and the strangers were attractive, I could enjoy it. Safe sex would be a must, of course."

By 4/27/13, just four days later, you wrote "I also went to the home of a strange man who could have been dangerous for all I knew. The sex was unprotected. He told me he has had a vasectomy and that he is clean. I took his word for it."

This is the progression of the disease. In just a matter of days your boundary shifted to allow increasingly dangerous behavior, even while you saw it to be dangerous.

The first quote was from when we were discussing public sex and dogging with random strangers that you meet in a park. The second was a one-on-one meeting with someone that I had been chatting with. While I do agree that it was stupid to go to his apartment the way I did, I don't see the two situations as equivalent.