Well I just finished day one of going without masturbation and porn and I'm feeling pretty good. I finally got to go back to church today which was amazing, work was fine tonight, but I got some really sad news. My family friend started watching porn tonight and it broke my heart. He's 13 and really does not live in the best home life either the best values and has been tossed back and forth. It just makes me feel awful because it reminds me of my life and my mistakes. I hope that this is a wake up call to him and to his grandparents to start treating him right and giving him the attention he needs. This has definitely been a wake up call to me and I'm definitely going to try my hardest to keep doing better. I'm tired of this garbage because I can see how it ruins people's life and I won't let it ruin mine. Thank you all for reading and keeping me in your thoughts and prayers.