I wish I could offer something more comforting than I'm sorry you are ecmxpetiencing this but I am. I truly am.

You were clean for 3 months. Thats something to be proud of. I know relapsing feels horrible. Its so easy to.beat yourself up and hate yourself that much more because of it.

Please try to have self compassion. You aren't defined by your mistakes. You are so much more than success or failure. You have inherent worth as a human being, and deserve self compassion.

You relapsed, but doesn't define you, or your worth.

If you want to talk more about what happened, I'm here. Please know you are not alone. I've been there. And I in no way am some paragon of self control. Ive relapsed more that I care to admit. But, life is a series of choices. Of putting one foot in front of the other.

You made it to 3 months. I have faith in you. Just make it through 1 day. and that one day will eventually become 2 days. 1 day can make a huge difference.

Hang in there.

I’m sorry to hear, *hugs*.. I just did too after a while of not. I discovered that using red pen instead of cutting has a similar effect yet it can be washed off so had been trying to stick to that instead then yesterday I just couldn’t help myself. I’ll be back to trying not to with red pen instead and maybe you could try it too or something similar to help ween yourself away from self harming

@judicatorprime
I find your words helpful as well, although they weren’t intended for me of course. Much truth.. Thank you