Unfortunately I know how you feel all to well, I almost slashed my wrist 4 weeks ago but my son came home early and I ended up just cutting myself badly enough to have to get stitches instead. The only thing that keeps me from ending it all is thinking of my son and what it would do to him if he found me like that.....

well there\'s no way that could happen since my kids don\'t live with me

But you still have kids right, wouldn\'t it hurt them terribly if you were gone?

I don\'t know they all seem happier where they are than they ever did with me.

Of course not, they would be totally despondant if you left their lives that way. I know kids can seem ungrateful and cruel sometimes, I have a 19 yr old also and he can be a real ass sometimes, but I still know that if he found out I completed suicide it would kill him....he and my 10 yr old are the only things that keep me on this hellish earth.

I love my kids don\'t get me wrong but I do sometimes think they would be better off without me.

I sometimes feel that everyone would be better off without me. I\'ve tried to commit suicide 9 times, but everytime something stops me, like the universe has decided it ain\'t my time to go yet, and it really ticks me off, because it should be my decision. But then when the depression clears and I think rationally, I think about my lil boy and what I would have done to him if I\'d completed and I don\'t know........it makes me glad that I was stopped, for a while anyway.

My kids are all almost grown. I pretty much have to bribe them to even get to see them. So honestly I think the only thing they would be missing is the gifts.

you sound like my mom.......who\'s constantly saying I\'d be better off without her.....
Well I\'ll let you know I wouldn\'t........and neither would your kids be better off with out you...
Losing a parent that way........I really can\'t imagine..........It\'s hard enough wondering if today is the last time I\'ll see her. I don\'t know what I would do if she actually completed..
try and think of them.......they\'ll always need you.....and try to keep walking....
*hugs*

Wow they said it better than i ever could Im a very caring person I love to end this suffering I wish all I ever had to suffer was emtional although the cruelest my physical pain makes life even more unbearable but at least w/emtional its easier to hide I love my hubby so much and when I feel so low i want to end it I think of him since i care too much i couldnt bear doing that to him. cuz i know what it is like to hurt that bad i couldnt RIP knowing i caused it. I wish there was something I could say to help except you have us we care


hugggsss

Thank you all for caring. My kids are my world. I know all about physical, mental, and sexual abuse. It just seems like more than I can handle sometimes.

I know hun we all share these same feelings and we r like family we help when ya need it most cuz we do understand and we R non judgemental which i feel is the biggest thing. if i may i like to add ya as a friend
wishing for butterflies 4 ya

I was at that point 6 days ago. I just got out of the Pward today. I admitted myself because I was planning out my death. I\'m so glad that I did what I did. I feel better now.

Bamamom,

Wanted to check in and see how you\'re doing today? Hope you\'re feeling a little better.

kat

Pbneon,

I\'m so glad you\'re still with us! I was there 4 weeks ago, but my son kept me here. Hopefully the depression will stay away for a while this time.