I can relate. I have a good friend who has gone through the same things that I have, including SI, but she is farther in her recovery than I am. A little over a week ago, I SI and about two days later I texted her and told her. After I told her, I immediately had that feeling of guilt, shame, embarrassment..... All those lovely feelings that come with SI. She was really cool about it though. One of the things she told to do was remove all the sharps from my room, which I did. I'd never been challenged like that before, but almost immediately, I had that intense i
"Itch" to SI. I wanted to do bad, but I knew that it was only because I had made myself get rid did of my "tools". I have definitely had urges since, but also, the challenge has helped me prove to myself that I can beat this coping skill and using a more positive one. Just like if you're quitting smoking or drugs, you have to find something to replace that coping skill that was your go to.

The best thing to do with your new therapist is to just be honest. I know it's hard, but the more honest you are with your therapist, the better that s/he can help you. And believe me, I know that it's not fun at all to disclose that you SI, but remember, your therapist isn't there to judge you, they're there to help you. And it's not something they haven't heard before. Hope this helps.

Oh yes it helps. I have gotten rid of my twezers but I need the knives for the kitchen for veggies and stuff. Am I in denial about this? How do you deal with that? I have shared that I SI with my therapist. That is a relief and then I can go on and work on the other issues in my life with her. I wish I didn't have this issue. But wishing doesn't make it so. Unfortunately I have to do the f iiiiiiiig work. Excuse my slang. Thanks. Share later.