*hugs*....I've felt like that.
I've stood on the top of the car park and look down. I came really close to jumping but obviously I didn't!
It takes alot of courage to step back and say not today!

Tell me how can YOUR life be better without you? Your life is wherever you are.
Things can get better...if you jump...you are taking the bet nothing will change but if you continue there's always a chance things will get better, always.

*hugs*.....

bbe why do you feel like that .. ok i can understand you can go through it i have been there done it and got the t-shirt .. i have had 4 police officers pull me back off the edge of a building before now .. and so i can understand why you feel this way i realli do .. but you got to think about would life realli be better with you gone .. i was put into a mental hospital and my mum wrote me a letter saying you thought life would be better but without you it would be worst .. ok i am only 15 but at the same time have lived through more shit then have fingers to count

bbe i am here if you need to talk

well life is crap i dont know what im doing day to day:( just feel run down and not sure why i am here. yeah when i looked down i just wanted to jump but i did say maybe another time. I just gotta keep myself alive for now. for ppl sake. but really deep inside i wanna just jump.

Tjhanks for ppl that are trying to support me and talk to me it means alot. not alot of people have time for me and i aint sure why:(

bbe everyone cares for you and i do and always will .. im ere for u

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People here will always have time for you!

Why is life crap atm?...what's going on?
Does anyone know how you feel...anyone out of the people you stay alive for?

Hang in there.....*hugs*

Im living with a bf i use to love so so much now im not sure if i love him in the same way as i use to i feel like im just gonna hurt him more and more if i stay with him:(. nope not many peple know my real feelings i never really tell ppl as it would freak them out if it freaks me out it certainly wil freak other peopLE out and if i told my psych he will lock me up i just know it:(

Is it because yu are afraid of hurting your bf, that you don't love him the same way? or...?
You should try talking to him....maybe he could help

I don't talk much to others either....getting a counsellor, on online diary and this site has really started to help me trust others...but it's a slow process...
I'm waiting for a psych...I've been waiting for the past 3/4 months lol..
Anyways, I don't really know how things work over there....but over here you'd say I want to die and they wouldn't 'lock' you up!
But you could say you wish you were dead but you don't want to do anything...you're just feeling really down. I don't think the psych would put you in hospital for that but maybe he could be of more help..
*hugs*....sometimes 'freaking' other people out is necessary to get the help you deserve.