This is going to be really hard, but take a deep breath and try to be calm. When my son OD'ed for the first time, everyone kept saying it was just an accident, he didn't mean anything etc. He just laughed it off the next day, saying it was so stupid, and he wasn't trying anything. But I beleived it was a serious attempt. Six months later he tried something much more lethal and succeeded. But he did it away from home, because he knew I bleieved the first time, but no one would listen. As long as I live I will never forgive myself for how I acted in th hours/days immediately following his first OD. If I had been clamer, less freaked, he might have gone looking for help instead of a more effective method. Please please just tell her you love her, and that you are there to listen, no matter what. I would give so much to have that opportunity knowing what I know now.
Hang in.

i have told her all that many many times and told her that she must call me if she wants to chat but i live so far away i cant be with her.

I find that things I can't or won't say in person or over the phone are much easier for me to talk about online. Ask her to keep her computer online (if possible) and then just pop in and chat. Doesn't matter about what or when. Just be there.

i need to cut or go get my laxatives or something. sounds dumb and just as stupid but i gotta do it

come and tlk to me if u wnt i am here

message me here... please. ill help you as much as i can.
im sorry your sister is being like that. it must be really hard for you. im here for you.

Hey Emma,

I can imagined how freaked you were. Emma, you CAN deal with this. Understand that as much pain as you are going through, how much pain your sister must have to try to kill herself to escape it. I was where your sister is many years ago and each time my younger sister flipped and blamed me for putting her and my family through hell. But at the time, the hell that I was going through consumed me - not anyone elses. I guess what I'm trying to say is. . . Don't freak thinking about yourself and that's way hard. Be cool and be there for her - let her know how much you love her, how important she is in your life. Write letters, text, call . . .
You are strong and can handle this!!

let me speak from your sisters point of view for just a minute. i really was just in that exact situation. just 2 weeks ago i od'ed. my older brother lives about 3 1/2 hours away.
i haven't talked to him in a few months. and espacially not since i attpmted that.
it really hurts me, not talking to him. we never talked much before, and were never really close. but not being able to just tell him myself, even over the phone or computer is really hard. i wish he would be there for me.
just telling your sister that you're there isn't enough. don't be intrusive to her life, well i guess that would be hard since you don't live with her.
but she HAS to know that you meant what you said about being there.
if you go and break down over this, it'll just prove her theory that life sux. you can't do that to her, you have to be strong for her now.
call her everyday. tell her you love her.
make sure she says she loves you, if she doesn't, then ask if she does.
make plans to visit her sometime, or to have her visit you. and talk about all the things you can do once you get together. all the fun you can have.
and make sure she knows that she doesn't have to talk about anything she doesn't want or need to talk about. she'll talk to you about it in her own time.
but she needs you right now. just like you need us. she's very fagile, and broken, and probably feels exposed and lost.
make sure she knows that you love her.
say that, if nothing else.

thanks guys. I no it'll be ok im just mega cross at her coz we had such a good time together last week and talked lots and i love her so much