Self-Injury Support Group
Whether you or someone you know or love struggles with self-injury, this is the community to discuss your experience, find support, meet others going through the same, and get advice on how to stop. Working together, we can help find alternative coping skills to reduce the urge to self-harm.
I really need the help and support of this group right now because I've been cut free for about two and a half years now but after getting laid off from the job that I loved just before Christmas due to company shake ups I've been sinking further and further into hopelessness and dispair...
I know redundancy is affecting people the world over so I'm not trying to make out that I feel like Im the only one or anything, far from it.
The truth is, for about three years I have been in and out of jobs having a seriously tough time with employees that just want to be nasty, cruel and mean to me and make my life a living hell simply because it makes them feel warm inside.
I've never had what you would call coping mechanisms... I've always been bad at that, but I did the best I could. But when it got real bad I started taking cutting impliments to work with me, and if things got too much... well they were there for me when I needed them :-(
After many jobs like this and after ten months of job hunting and joining up with agencies I found the job I got laid off from last year. I was good at it, I got on well with everyone. and best of all, no one went nuts at me or tried to terrorize me out of the office.
And now its gone... its gone forever! YEARS spent searching just for that one opportunity, just for the place where I fit and now its gone.
But after so many years of being bullied badly at jobs I have resigned myself to the belief that it will never get better. I dont think theres a place for me in the world. To all points and purposes it seems to have turned its back on me.
During those dark years what kept me going was HOPE. That things would get better, but ive lost that spark of hope now. Thats gone too. Friends kept me going too, but I cant find it in me to tell any of them this; that I want to cut again and perhaps just end it all because theres so many gaps in my resume where ive been looking for work and this latest one is the worst... It makes me look like such a no hoper to an employer!
... So there it is. I feel I've reached the end of my road and I cant stop thinking about cutting. Crying my heart out, making a noose and cutting.
Someone out there please help because I'm hanging on by a thread here :'-(
I know redundancy is affecting people the world over so I'm not trying to make out that I feel like Im the only one or anything, far from it.
The truth is, for about three years I have been in and out of jobs having a seriously tough time with employees that just want to be nasty, cruel and mean to me and make my life a living hell simply because it makes them feel warm inside.
I've never had what you would call coping mechanisms... I've always been bad at that, but I did the best I could. But when it got real bad I started taking cutting impliments to work with me, and if things got too much... well they were there for me when I needed them :-(
After many jobs like this and after ten months of job hunting and joining up with agencies I found the job I got laid off from last year. I was good at it, I got on well with everyone. and best of all, no one went nuts at me or tried to terrorize me out of the office.
And now its gone... its gone forever! YEARS spent searching just for that one opportunity, just for the place where I fit and now its gone.
But after so many years of being bullied badly at jobs I have resigned myself to the belief that it will never get better. I dont think theres a place for me in the world. To all points and purposes it seems to have turned its back on me.
During those dark years what kept me going was HOPE. That things would get better, but ive lost that spark of hope now. Thats gone too. Friends kept me going too, but I cant find it in me to tell any of them this; that I want to cut again and perhaps just end it all because theres so many gaps in my resume where ive been looking for work and this latest one is the worst... It makes me look like such a no hoper to an employer!
... So there it is. I feel I've reached the end of my road and I cant stop thinking about cutting. Crying my heart out, making a noose and cutting.
Someone out there please help because I'm hanging on by a thread here :'-(
You may have to look hard and long, but you will find someone willing to take a chance on you even though you have gaps in your resume. I see HOPE for you. I hope you find your HOPE. again.
Please don't consider ending it all. If you do that you can't keep trying until you find another job you like.
Good Luck on your job search. Please keep trying and you will eventually find something.