Self-Injury Support Group

Whether you or someone you know or love struggles with self-injury, this is the community to discuss your experience, find support, meet others going through the same, and get advice on how to stop. Working together, we can help find alternative coping skills to reduce the urge to self-harm.

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trying to be happy

freedomlover
freedomlover
hey its me i havent wrote in a while..i dont know if anyone cares but think latlys have been messed and i really got scared.
i stopped cutting for a while...plaster i bright smile on my face...tryed to be happy...even whe i felt disgraced....i loughed and played,,, i never cryed i tryed just to move one...but is seemed that deep inside..that nuthening really changed,,,my friends think that i am happy...so do my paresnts and teachers,,,but all i really want to do is go hide and cryed,,,i want to take my razor again...i want to take my knife,,,i want to makes just one little cut,,,but not to end my life...it seems like know one cares..about the pain i feel...does anyone care..on here?


sorry about the rymes in this i actully need help and advise that just kinda came out when i was writing this and it made more sence to me..anyone can you help me polease...tell me what i am doing wrong?
EmmaammE
EmmaammE
im sorry your feeling so bad. you really need to talk about some of the underlying issues so that you can move on. im here if you want to chat or you could go see your doctor or counsellor. dont reach for the razors your doing well not to cut keep it up x x x
deleted_user
deleted_user
Amanda Im so sorry about not being there. I wont to say that I w have noticed but I probboly woudnt have and for that Im really sorry. PLEASE dont cut please even if its a small bit it get worse I really know that cuz thats why ive been home it all started small one little cut then it gets deeper and longer and more and more blood... cutting is not the answer dont be like me get help if we cant help then ask one of the counslers or princapels. they might help u get help and dont act happy tell us whats wrong we cant care if we dont know why ur hurting . well ill be at school tomorrow so we can talk more then.
deleted_user
deleted_user
yes
we do care. pls don't. It matters to me.
At some point i just decided,..."damn it your gonna be happy wether you like it or not!!" lol i still have problems, and it didn't really work 100% but it helped. I just tried to keep my mind positive. Thinking positive, and makin an effort to look at the good things in my life, and the happy fun things in the world. I think they call it behavior modification? I have little notes all over the place to remind myself of these lil happy things.
But it does get so frustrating.... it's hard to keep it going. i don't even know if it's healthy =/
but pls....keep posting here and writing how you really feel. we care!
*hugz*
deleted_user
deleted_user
i wonder why no one gets it...why do we have to put up these false fronts...why cant we just talk about the root of the problems and maybe get past them? WTF...underlying issues..i hate having to hide my true and shitty feelings
pat